Now
Rhydin Harbor
Disembarking from the "Wanderer"
His boots hit the dock with a thump. It was worn, weather beaten, and tattered. Just like he felt. His heart was heavy and his soul, such as it was, felt tired. He was shocked, insulted, and saddened beyond belief at Legate Damar's punishment. He'd once called Damar a friend.
He wouldn't've minded death; He saw it everywhere, he greeted it every day, had flirted with it, had made it his lover in the days before, during, and after the war. To have been made a martyr for his Union against the ridiculous sensibilities of the pompous, arrogant Federation would have been a fitting end. To have been exonerated of all "Crimes" He'd committed during the war would also have been fitting: He'd never done anything but kill whatever enemy he was pointed at. His Order wanted his acquittal, the people of Cardassia wanted his acquittal, and virtually all of the high council had wanted his acquittal.
But Damar had another idea. "Psychological Leave" Had been the phrase he'd used. Of course Damar was unwilling to execute his fiercest soldier for defeating the enemy, even in the spectacularly gruesome way he'd gone about it. But he couldn't exactly let Denor off the hook for what was such a terrible crime to the Starfleet officers he'd apparently become a lackey to. So, when Denor failed miserably a standard fleet psych test, Damar had jumped on it. He'd deactivated the High Gul's command role and banished him from the service until such time that Denor could pass. Denor would've preferred death.
Denor had thought the test might be rigged. He couldn't be that crazy, could he" Were he that insane, he reasoned, how could he have commanded the Third Order to the impressive list of kills and victories he had" Didn't crazy people do things like eat the bodies of the dead" Laugh out loud for no reason' Cut themselves, talk to themselves, have multiple personalities" Denor didn't do any of that. The test surely must've been rigged. Sonofabitch.
The High Gul looked over and across the harbor. It too, looked tattered and beaten. Some of the anchored ships were riding low or had a list, and many of their sails hung limp and tattered, their yards askew. Some of the docks were broken and awash, and some of the warehouses along the waterfront showed obvious damage. Perhaps a wave that the harbor breakwater couldn't deal with had hit. Perhaps it was something else. The one thing to expect in this town, was indeed, the unexpected. He walked down the wharf towards the shore.
He didn't want to be here. Not here, not now. He'd spent too long in this place years ago. He'd had his best times and his worst times here. He'd been engaged to a nasty, mean, beautiful, loving human-Drow. And then he killed her later on in a duel when she'd grown too drow and not human enough. He'd commanded some of these men, and they had together rushed their enemies with blades held high, and they'd been known everywhere and to everyone as those men you don't cross. He'd even taken a wife in this land, something he'd promised himself he wouldn't, not after Llinora's terrible death, not after what Mia had put him through. She'd been sweet and kind and giving and loving, skilled at her magic and her fighting, and everything that she was filled the void in his heart. And it was of course his luck, that she'd been unwilling to go back to Cardassia with him once his peoples' call had grown loud enough and his ship strong enough again to make the journey home. So he'd gone back alone and fought like a demon, as though the blood he shed and the lives he took might somehow satiate his thirst for that which he'd lost. But no, all it did was stain his hands red and paint kills on the prow of his wicked flagship, Vamora.
What else was he to do' He could've stayed home where ordinary citizens recognized him and bought him drinks at the bar, where his people lined up to shake his hand and ask to be regaled with tales of the war. But no, that'd only be a humiliating reminder of the fact that he was too mentally infirm to command his Order directly anymore. He could've gone to any of the unaligned worlds, purchased a ranch, and would have lived in complete anonymity and comfort. But no, he'd be driven more insane by that than he already was; To go from a commander engaged in war every day to a farmer engaged by winged pests every day would've been completely intolerable. He might as well put two in his face, although he wasn't totally sure that would kill him regardless. Maybe one day he'd try it and find out.
He looked to the north, maybe he could see it from here. His black-blue eyes ranged far along the coast with 20-05 clarity, searching for it, shrouded in fog as it usually was and probably was now. If it was even still there. He looked for another few moments, then shrugged to himself. Hell with it. Either it'd been brought down or it was locked in fog too thick for him to see through. He'd find out later on for sure, since he had nowhere else to go in this land. Not yet, anyway. He wasn't about to sleep in the street like a beggar or take a room in a boardinghouse whose owners didn't bother changing the bedsheets between residents. He might be down these days, but was certainly not out. He shrugged his shoulders to get his pack settled just right and took up again the two big duffels that together contained all the worldly possessions he'd brought with him. Then he stepped onto the stone-lined quay that led to the street, and he walked back into this town that he both loved and hated.
tbc...
Rhydin Harbor
Disembarking from the "Wanderer"
His boots hit the dock with a thump. It was worn, weather beaten, and tattered. Just like he felt. His heart was heavy and his soul, such as it was, felt tired. He was shocked, insulted, and saddened beyond belief at Legate Damar's punishment. He'd once called Damar a friend.
He wouldn't've minded death; He saw it everywhere, he greeted it every day, had flirted with it, had made it his lover in the days before, during, and after the war. To have been made a martyr for his Union against the ridiculous sensibilities of the pompous, arrogant Federation would have been a fitting end. To have been exonerated of all "Crimes" He'd committed during the war would also have been fitting: He'd never done anything but kill whatever enemy he was pointed at. His Order wanted his acquittal, the people of Cardassia wanted his acquittal, and virtually all of the high council had wanted his acquittal.
But Damar had another idea. "Psychological Leave" Had been the phrase he'd used. Of course Damar was unwilling to execute his fiercest soldier for defeating the enemy, even in the spectacularly gruesome way he'd gone about it. But he couldn't exactly let Denor off the hook for what was such a terrible crime to the Starfleet officers he'd apparently become a lackey to. So, when Denor failed miserably a standard fleet psych test, Damar had jumped on it. He'd deactivated the High Gul's command role and banished him from the service until such time that Denor could pass. Denor would've preferred death.
Denor had thought the test might be rigged. He couldn't be that crazy, could he" Were he that insane, he reasoned, how could he have commanded the Third Order to the impressive list of kills and victories he had" Didn't crazy people do things like eat the bodies of the dead" Laugh out loud for no reason' Cut themselves, talk to themselves, have multiple personalities" Denor didn't do any of that. The test surely must've been rigged. Sonofabitch.
The High Gul looked over and across the harbor. It too, looked tattered and beaten. Some of the anchored ships were riding low or had a list, and many of their sails hung limp and tattered, their yards askew. Some of the docks were broken and awash, and some of the warehouses along the waterfront showed obvious damage. Perhaps a wave that the harbor breakwater couldn't deal with had hit. Perhaps it was something else. The one thing to expect in this town, was indeed, the unexpected. He walked down the wharf towards the shore.
He didn't want to be here. Not here, not now. He'd spent too long in this place years ago. He'd had his best times and his worst times here. He'd been engaged to a nasty, mean, beautiful, loving human-Drow. And then he killed her later on in a duel when she'd grown too drow and not human enough. He'd commanded some of these men, and they had together rushed their enemies with blades held high, and they'd been known everywhere and to everyone as those men you don't cross. He'd even taken a wife in this land, something he'd promised himself he wouldn't, not after Llinora's terrible death, not after what Mia had put him through. She'd been sweet and kind and giving and loving, skilled at her magic and her fighting, and everything that she was filled the void in his heart. And it was of course his luck, that she'd been unwilling to go back to Cardassia with him once his peoples' call had grown loud enough and his ship strong enough again to make the journey home. So he'd gone back alone and fought like a demon, as though the blood he shed and the lives he took might somehow satiate his thirst for that which he'd lost. But no, all it did was stain his hands red and paint kills on the prow of his wicked flagship, Vamora.
What else was he to do' He could've stayed home where ordinary citizens recognized him and bought him drinks at the bar, where his people lined up to shake his hand and ask to be regaled with tales of the war. But no, that'd only be a humiliating reminder of the fact that he was too mentally infirm to command his Order directly anymore. He could've gone to any of the unaligned worlds, purchased a ranch, and would have lived in complete anonymity and comfort. But no, he'd be driven more insane by that than he already was; To go from a commander engaged in war every day to a farmer engaged by winged pests every day would've been completely intolerable. He might as well put two in his face, although he wasn't totally sure that would kill him regardless. Maybe one day he'd try it and find out.
He looked to the north, maybe he could see it from here. His black-blue eyes ranged far along the coast with 20-05 clarity, searching for it, shrouded in fog as it usually was and probably was now. If it was even still there. He looked for another few moments, then shrugged to himself. Hell with it. Either it'd been brought down or it was locked in fog too thick for him to see through. He'd find out later on for sure, since he had nowhere else to go in this land. Not yet, anyway. He wasn't about to sleep in the street like a beggar or take a room in a boardinghouse whose owners didn't bother changing the bedsheets between residents. He might be down these days, but was certainly not out. He shrugged his shoulders to get his pack settled just right and took up again the two big duffels that together contained all the worldly possessions he'd brought with him. Then he stepped onto the stone-lined quay that led to the street, and he walked back into this town that he both loved and hated.
tbc...