Hiking through the Amazon Basin was at once amazing and awful, Eleanor had decided. Amazing, in that it was a beautiful place, filled with plants and animals she had never even thought to see in person; awful, in that she was not used to hiking for several hours in a day while carrying almost her own weight on her back. She had insisted on taking a fair share of the burden of supplies and, just as she had promised, had not complained aloud once since they had landed at what Estevo insisted on calling the Old Mother Weeping. She was thoroughly miserable, though, her spirits definitely falling with each hour that passed ....and now the heavens had opened. Rain poured down from the sky, gathering on the leaves above them to drip heavily from the canopy and soak them all to the skin as they continued through the trees to the tune of lightning and thunder high above. The ground beneath her feet had turned to thick mud, easy to slip in, and, for the first time, she was slowing them down, struggling to lift her feet out of the thick slime to take another step.
No one had bothered to come to her rescue, so to speak. She had insisted, rather vehemently, on pulling her own weight, after all, but that was before the terrain had become more difficult and the heavens had opened up, making the hike even more treacherous. It was Captain Marshall who picked his way down the line toward her, not without some effort or some grumbling from the men who accompanied them. To her credit, Eleanor hadn't complained once or asked for help, but Jay knew as well as she did that she wasn't made for this, no matter how hard she tried to be brave.
"I've often wondered how Heaven can so quickly turn to Hell," he murmured at his approach. The Amazon wasn't the place to have loud, boisterous conversations, so he kept his voice low, just loud enough for her to hear him.
Breathless, disheveled, and trying very hard not to cry in frustration at her own inability to keep up, Eleanor took a deep breath before even acknowledging his presence, swiping her bedraggled hair out of her eyes. "How long will this storm last, do you think?"
Though there was no point in looking up at the sky, since he couldn't really see much of it through the trees, his glance darted momentarily skyward, the rain beating against the brim of his hat, so that it didn't run into his eyes. Thankfully, they'd come prepared for the weather, but that didn't make it any easier to bear.
"No idea," he replied, looking far more cheerful than he should, given the circumstances. Then again, he'd been through worse. "Might be a few minutes; might be a few days," he admitted, without apology and without sugar-coating his answer. He had warned her, after all. "Let me at least take some of the supplies. I'm used to this, and you're not, and you're going to need to focus on your footing." He wasn't asking exactly, but he wasn't making any demands either. He didn't think she should refuse his offer for help, when she was clearly having difficulty.
"Days?" Eleanor looked horrified, resting her hands on her hips as she stared at him through the rain. "I don't need to be coddled, James," she reminded him, wanting to be sure he wasn't offering to take some of her burden just because she was a woman.
"As you have so often reminded me," he replied, looking as serious as she was. "Eleanor, please. You put me in charge of this expedition, and it's my job to make sure everyone is keeping up. You are clearly having difficulty and falling behind. I am willing and able to help, so let me. It does not make you weak to accept a little help when you need it. On the contrary, isn't it wiser to admit when you need help than to suffer in silence?"
She sighed, disappointed in herself for needing the help at all. "All right," she conceded, dragging her left foot painfully out of the mud she was sinking into. She pulled one arm out of her bag's straps, heaving it around to begin the process of transferring a few pieces from it to his.
He was tempted to reach for her, to steady her arm, but knew better. He was a gentleman at heart, after all. It was in his blood, part of his makeup, who he was, and though he respected her need for independence, he made sure he was close-by and alert to jump in and help at any moment. But while they tarried behind, the rest of the expedition continued on, leaving them lagging even farther behind.
That had not yet occurred to Eleanor, though it did when she pulled the pack onto her back once again, peering at the trail ahead in alarm. "Where did they go' Have they left us?"
"They'll stop ahead," he told her, not seeming too concerned about it. Enough of the men had seen him fall behind to look to the slowest member of their party to know where he'd gone, and he'd left orders to come to a halt up ahead, as soon as they found a place more conducive to shelter. He took as much of her load as she was willing to give him, hoping it was enough to lighten her burden enough that the going would be a little easier for her. "Eleanor," he started, as gently as he could. "You are the strongest woman I know, but there is nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it. Especially when there are those who are willing to help you."
"I know that you do not want me here," she countered. "I do not want to give you any reason to regret allowing me to come in the first place. I'll get stronger." This was offered in a hopeful tone, but she wasn't entirely convinced she was going to be able to feel her legs in the morning.
"It is not that I don't want you here, so much as I worry for your safety. Really, that is all it is," he argued, once again as gently as he could. He paused a moment as he readjusted his own pack, now a little heavier, though he showed no sign of noticing. There was more he wanted to say, but he didn't think this was the time or place for it. "Better?" he asked instead.
She nodded, looking down as she made the effort to pull her feet out of the mud once again. It was the mud that was giving her the difficulty, unused to the ground attempting to swallow her feet whenever she put one down.
He knew he was risking her anger by doing so, and yet, he offered an arm to steady herself while she pulled her feet out of the muck. There was never an "I told you so" or an "I warned you." He would never hold her decision over her and ridicule her for it. If anything, she had gained his respect for her determination and inner strength, even if she wasn't as physically capable as the men around her. And why should she be? She was, after all, a woman, unaccustomed to such things as this, but determined to carry on.
Perhaps the struggle of the day had broken her a little, but Eleanor took the arm he offered without a word, keeping her face turned away as she felt herself cry just a little in frustration. And that, too, annoyed her - it was such a terribly weak thing to do, to cry because she was having trouble walking and needed help. But she didn't want any of them to know she was struggling quite that much.
He had been honest when he'd told her she was the strongest woman he knew. In light of that, he hoped she wouldn't hold it against him for helping her, just as he wouldn't have blamed her for crying, had he noticed. "You should have seen me the first time I went into the jungle," he said, trying to comfort her a little with idle conversation. "I was convinced I wasn't going to make it out alive, and yet, here I am."
Despite everything, she smiled, not entirely sure she believed him. "I find it difficult to believe you have ever not overcome a challenge set before you," she answered, grateful for his arm to lean on despite her objections. "You do not seem to be a man easily cowed."
"It depends on the challenge, I suppose," he replied, the hint of a smile on his face. She was a challenge, to be sure, and one he was not yet sure he'd overcome. They were still moving too slowly to catch up with the others, but hopefully, they hadn't gone too far ahead. "This way," he said, leading the way through the jungle, where there was no real path to follow, except for the one they'd made for themselves in the trees and brush.
"How do you know your way?" she asked, unable to tell through the rain what was a game trail and what was the trail left in the wake of their party gone on ahead. She knew Alex would realize sooner or later that they'd been left behind, but would the party retrace their steps to seek them out"
No one had bothered to come to her rescue, so to speak. She had insisted, rather vehemently, on pulling her own weight, after all, but that was before the terrain had become more difficult and the heavens had opened up, making the hike even more treacherous. It was Captain Marshall who picked his way down the line toward her, not without some effort or some grumbling from the men who accompanied them. To her credit, Eleanor hadn't complained once or asked for help, but Jay knew as well as she did that she wasn't made for this, no matter how hard she tried to be brave.
"I've often wondered how Heaven can so quickly turn to Hell," he murmured at his approach. The Amazon wasn't the place to have loud, boisterous conversations, so he kept his voice low, just loud enough for her to hear him.
Breathless, disheveled, and trying very hard not to cry in frustration at her own inability to keep up, Eleanor took a deep breath before even acknowledging his presence, swiping her bedraggled hair out of her eyes. "How long will this storm last, do you think?"
Though there was no point in looking up at the sky, since he couldn't really see much of it through the trees, his glance darted momentarily skyward, the rain beating against the brim of his hat, so that it didn't run into his eyes. Thankfully, they'd come prepared for the weather, but that didn't make it any easier to bear.
"No idea," he replied, looking far more cheerful than he should, given the circumstances. Then again, he'd been through worse. "Might be a few minutes; might be a few days," he admitted, without apology and without sugar-coating his answer. He had warned her, after all. "Let me at least take some of the supplies. I'm used to this, and you're not, and you're going to need to focus on your footing." He wasn't asking exactly, but he wasn't making any demands either. He didn't think she should refuse his offer for help, when she was clearly having difficulty.
"Days?" Eleanor looked horrified, resting her hands on her hips as she stared at him through the rain. "I don't need to be coddled, James," she reminded him, wanting to be sure he wasn't offering to take some of her burden just because she was a woman.
"As you have so often reminded me," he replied, looking as serious as she was. "Eleanor, please. You put me in charge of this expedition, and it's my job to make sure everyone is keeping up. You are clearly having difficulty and falling behind. I am willing and able to help, so let me. It does not make you weak to accept a little help when you need it. On the contrary, isn't it wiser to admit when you need help than to suffer in silence?"
She sighed, disappointed in herself for needing the help at all. "All right," she conceded, dragging her left foot painfully out of the mud she was sinking into. She pulled one arm out of her bag's straps, heaving it around to begin the process of transferring a few pieces from it to his.
He was tempted to reach for her, to steady her arm, but knew better. He was a gentleman at heart, after all. It was in his blood, part of his makeup, who he was, and though he respected her need for independence, he made sure he was close-by and alert to jump in and help at any moment. But while they tarried behind, the rest of the expedition continued on, leaving them lagging even farther behind.
That had not yet occurred to Eleanor, though it did when she pulled the pack onto her back once again, peering at the trail ahead in alarm. "Where did they go' Have they left us?"
"They'll stop ahead," he told her, not seeming too concerned about it. Enough of the men had seen him fall behind to look to the slowest member of their party to know where he'd gone, and he'd left orders to come to a halt up ahead, as soon as they found a place more conducive to shelter. He took as much of her load as she was willing to give him, hoping it was enough to lighten her burden enough that the going would be a little easier for her. "Eleanor," he started, as gently as he could. "You are the strongest woman I know, but there is nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it. Especially when there are those who are willing to help you."
"I know that you do not want me here," she countered. "I do not want to give you any reason to regret allowing me to come in the first place. I'll get stronger." This was offered in a hopeful tone, but she wasn't entirely convinced she was going to be able to feel her legs in the morning.
"It is not that I don't want you here, so much as I worry for your safety. Really, that is all it is," he argued, once again as gently as he could. He paused a moment as he readjusted his own pack, now a little heavier, though he showed no sign of noticing. There was more he wanted to say, but he didn't think this was the time or place for it. "Better?" he asked instead.
She nodded, looking down as she made the effort to pull her feet out of the mud once again. It was the mud that was giving her the difficulty, unused to the ground attempting to swallow her feet whenever she put one down.
He knew he was risking her anger by doing so, and yet, he offered an arm to steady herself while she pulled her feet out of the muck. There was never an "I told you so" or an "I warned you." He would never hold her decision over her and ridicule her for it. If anything, she had gained his respect for her determination and inner strength, even if she wasn't as physically capable as the men around her. And why should she be? She was, after all, a woman, unaccustomed to such things as this, but determined to carry on.
Perhaps the struggle of the day had broken her a little, but Eleanor took the arm he offered without a word, keeping her face turned away as she felt herself cry just a little in frustration. And that, too, annoyed her - it was such a terribly weak thing to do, to cry because she was having trouble walking and needed help. But she didn't want any of them to know she was struggling quite that much.
He had been honest when he'd told her she was the strongest woman he knew. In light of that, he hoped she wouldn't hold it against him for helping her, just as he wouldn't have blamed her for crying, had he noticed. "You should have seen me the first time I went into the jungle," he said, trying to comfort her a little with idle conversation. "I was convinced I wasn't going to make it out alive, and yet, here I am."
Despite everything, she smiled, not entirely sure she believed him. "I find it difficult to believe you have ever not overcome a challenge set before you," she answered, grateful for his arm to lean on despite her objections. "You do not seem to be a man easily cowed."
"It depends on the challenge, I suppose," he replied, the hint of a smile on his face. She was a challenge, to be sure, and one he was not yet sure he'd overcome. They were still moving too slowly to catch up with the others, but hopefully, they hadn't gone too far ahead. "This way," he said, leading the way through the jungle, where there was no real path to follow, except for the one they'd made for themselves in the trees and brush.
"How do you know your way?" she asked, unable to tell through the rain what was a game trail and what was the trail left in the wake of their party gone on ahead. She knew Alex would realize sooner or later that they'd been left behind, but would the party retrace their steps to seek them out"