06-17-07
I can't tell you how many times I've often wished I'd had a more exciting and fascinating childhood. That there was some locked away tidbit that would keep you enchanted with me, but I really can't recall anything that would. Unless you count the most dramatic memory that I hold dear to my heart about growing up. In that case, that would be the night that my mother told us that we, meaning my twin brother and I, biologically had no father....That we were conceived purely from the magic of one, Phantom Kerrazy and the heart of Twilight Isle herself.
Kolanos and I were still very young when this, Kerrazy chose to leave my mother's side. I honestly can't recall much of him, or who he was. I only have the memory orbs that my mother has finally allowed me access to. I've yet to be brave enough to open them for my own viewing, whether or not Kolanos has, I am not sure of that either.
I'm not sure whether or not I really do wish to remember him, even if it's just by the memory orbs. I've never really given it much thought until recently. I never saw myself as anything but Dracos Drasoini's daughter. The three of us, Amber, Kolanos and myself grew up for several winters without a father figure in our lives after one, Kerrazy had left my mother. Though I honestly believe it did not impact us as it would have most children. We were very fortunate in that area, because Mother had her brother....Our Uncle Cory. He was also there to lend a stern hand when we disobeyed mother, he was always there to answer questions that Mother could not find the answers to. There was also Rak as well, Mother's childhood guardian and confidant, but Rak....Well Rak was always a bit to intimidating for me to go to, I often found myself confiding in Uncle Cory. Though slightly intimidating to most, he was never anything but a kind hearted man to me.
Winters passed and we grew in many ways, though the scandals that ripped through the Isles, forced my brother and I to grow up a bit more rapidly than others.
Though I remember it vaguely, I do remember that it was shortly after Amber had run away from home when it all began, but....That is a story I really should not go into depth on, for it really isn't much of my business and I really don't know all the details. I suppose those as well as everything else of my Mother's past are contained in those orbs, but again I'm not so sure I'm brave enough to look into them yet.
But I do remember the day the day that my Mother changed again, the day that her smile was not forced for the sake of her children....But was genuine and filled with happiness and love once again.
I assume that day is the day I realized just how much of a hopeless romantic I had really become. Seeing the love lighting her eyes as well as Dracos'....Feeling the love they shared, it was electrifying in the air around them.
Growing up with my twin, was always....Quite boring in a sense. We had been told so many times that we were the epitome of perfect children. We rarely fought or argued, though we may not have been as close as most twins, there was not a hint of sibling rivalry between us. I did however notice changes between myself and Kolanos. I'd become the more indrawn of us as we grew older and he the more outgoing. As a child and young teenager, I was always the one that would be welcoming of new people, ready to talk their ear off, but when I got older....That changed.
But I believe that is enough about my past for now, I'd purchased this book weeks ago for the very purpose of using it as a means to compose my thoughts and writings together in a more organized mannerism. If I constantly write about my past, I will never be able to write about my current thoughts until I am much much older and it wouldn't have mattered any longer.
-S.K.D.
I can't tell you how many times I've often wished I'd had a more exciting and fascinating childhood. That there was some locked away tidbit that would keep you enchanted with me, but I really can't recall anything that would. Unless you count the most dramatic memory that I hold dear to my heart about growing up. In that case, that would be the night that my mother told us that we, meaning my twin brother and I, biologically had no father....That we were conceived purely from the magic of one, Phantom Kerrazy and the heart of Twilight Isle herself.
Kolanos and I were still very young when this, Kerrazy chose to leave my mother's side. I honestly can't recall much of him, or who he was. I only have the memory orbs that my mother has finally allowed me access to. I've yet to be brave enough to open them for my own viewing, whether or not Kolanos has, I am not sure of that either.
I'm not sure whether or not I really do wish to remember him, even if it's just by the memory orbs. I've never really given it much thought until recently. I never saw myself as anything but Dracos Drasoini's daughter. The three of us, Amber, Kolanos and myself grew up for several winters without a father figure in our lives after one, Kerrazy had left my mother. Though I honestly believe it did not impact us as it would have most children. We were very fortunate in that area, because Mother had her brother....Our Uncle Cory. He was also there to lend a stern hand when we disobeyed mother, he was always there to answer questions that Mother could not find the answers to. There was also Rak as well, Mother's childhood guardian and confidant, but Rak....Well Rak was always a bit to intimidating for me to go to, I often found myself confiding in Uncle Cory. Though slightly intimidating to most, he was never anything but a kind hearted man to me.
Winters passed and we grew in many ways, though the scandals that ripped through the Isles, forced my brother and I to grow up a bit more rapidly than others.
Though I remember it vaguely, I do remember that it was shortly after Amber had run away from home when it all began, but....That is a story I really should not go into depth on, for it really isn't much of my business and I really don't know all the details. I suppose those as well as everything else of my Mother's past are contained in those orbs, but again I'm not so sure I'm brave enough to look into them yet.
But I do remember the day the day that my Mother changed again, the day that her smile was not forced for the sake of her children....But was genuine and filled with happiness and love once again.
I assume that day is the day I realized just how much of a hopeless romantic I had really become. Seeing the love lighting her eyes as well as Dracos'....Feeling the love they shared, it was electrifying in the air around them.
Growing up with my twin, was always....Quite boring in a sense. We had been told so many times that we were the epitome of perfect children. We rarely fought or argued, though we may not have been as close as most twins, there was not a hint of sibling rivalry between us. I did however notice changes between myself and Kolanos. I'd become the more indrawn of us as we grew older and he the more outgoing. As a child and young teenager, I was always the one that would be welcoming of new people, ready to talk their ear off, but when I got older....That changed.
But I believe that is enough about my past for now, I'd purchased this book weeks ago for the very purpose of using it as a means to compose my thoughts and writings together in a more organized mannerism. If I constantly write about my past, I will never be able to write about my current thoughts until I am much much older and it wouldn't have mattered any longer.
-S.K.D.