"Aw, c'mon, peanut ..." Fliss sighed, putting the last box back down on the bed to turn and fold herself down next to Alexei on the floor. Her little brother was vehemently against her moving out, despite the fact that she was only going to be five minutes away. "I'm not going far. And you can come by everyday if you want to."
Broken-hearted as Alexei was that his big sister - whom he obviously idolized - was moving out, he was determined not to cry - at least, not in front of anyone. "But ..." the little boy started, trying to desperately to find a good reason to make her stay. "Who's gonna help me with my homework?" he asked with what was left of his Russian accent.
"I will!" she promised him, tucking her arms around him to look into his eyes. "Honestly, peanut, all this is really going to change is that I won't be sleeping in here with Bella anymore. Sure, I have work at the fire station and my night classes, but Lucas is 'round here or at his mom's nearly every night for dinner, and now I'll be with him when he decides. I'm not going far away, and I'm not disappearing. I promise."
"But what about Bella?" he asked, now that Fliss had mentioned the dog that had become so attached to her over the last few years - anything, really, to convince her to stay. "Are you taking Bella with you?" he asked worriedly, wondering if he'd have to get used to the family dog not being around anymore either. Never mind the fact that the family had numerous other pets.
"Bella's staying here, peanut," Fliss promised him affectionately. "She's Dad's dog, really. And Lir is definitely your dragon, too." She bopped the end of his nose gently. "Look at it this way, little dude ....you get to move in here to the big bedroom, because you're the next oldest."
"But I don't want you to go!" Alexei blurted, practically bursting into tears as he flung himself at Fliss. He had given it his best shot. He had tried to hold back the tears; he had tried to convince her to stay. It wasn't like she was going far away - she was only moving in with Lucas - but who was he going to snuggle up with when the nightmares woke him in the night"
There was a delicate moment as Fliss caught him, careful to fall back onto her own rear end with her brother in her arms. She'd talked to her mom about dealing with this - she couldn't give in, or Alex was never going to learn to accept that change was a part of life. "Hey now, shhh ..." She hugged him close, rocking gently. "What's really bothering you about all this, hmm?"
It took him a moment of sobs and hiccups to control his voice enough that he could make a coherent reply, not to mention gather the courage he needed to explain, though he had never kept anything from Fliss. "Bad dreams," he told her bluntly, not really needing to explain more than that. And it wasn't just bad dreams about his own experiences, but his little sister's, too. He was the eldest son - the only son - and he didn't want to bother his parents with his problems when he was going on nearly nine years old.
She stroked her hand over his hair. "Peanut, it's time you let Mom and Dad know that you're still struggling," she told him quietly. "Keeping things like this a secret, even with good intentions, it just ends up hurting worse. You really think Mom and Dad would ever think badly of you because you still get nightmares now and then" Really?"
"They're busy and ....Mama gets tired and ....I don't want to wake her and ....I'm not a baby and ..." He broke off abruptly as he'd run out of ands. For the most part, Alexei was a happy, well-adjusted child, but one didn't go through what he and the others did without it having some lasting effect. "Are you and Lucas gonna get married?" he asked, curiously.
"Kiddo, I'm not a baby," Fliss pointed out. She was seventeen; Uncle Tony had given her a car; she was definitely not a baby anymore. "When I have problems, I go to Mom and Dad. That's part of what they're there for. And Mom would hate it for you to be struggling all on your own, when you could go and wake her up. Trust me, she would much rather be awake with you than have you be awake and sad on your own. Okay?" She tilted her head, gently wiping his cheeks with her fingers. His question made her smile. "I think maybe we will, someday," she told him quietly. "But we have so much time ahead of us, there's no rush."
Somehow Alexei understood that Fliss was growing up, but it wasn't her growing up that scared him so much as their growing apart. She was going to work and school and spending time with Lucas. Where exactly did he fit into her busy schedule" There would be no more sleepovers in the treehouse, no more blanket forts, no more movie or games nights, or if there were, they wouldn't be the same. Maybe it wasn't so much the nightmares that were bothering him as it was change. "When will we see you?" he asked, bluntly though she'd already answered that question in a way, looking at her with adoring eyes while she wiped his tears away.
Fliss eyed him with gentle amusement. "Okay, peanut, you know what? Let's make a date, just us. Once a week, no matter what, you and me are going to hang out. Sometimes we'll invite Mo and Bess, or Lucas, or even Mom and Dad, but no matter what, it'll be you and me. Sound good?"
"Really?" he asked, eyes widening, face brightening at the prospect of her making time just for him, whether it was just the two of them or the whole family. "Promise?" he asked, holding up his hand and spreading his fingers as he remembered something she'd taught him. "Pinky swear?"
"Absolutely promise." She held up her own hand, hooking her pinky finger around his. "We just gotta pick a day, and I'll make sure I don't have any shifts on that day, so there's nothing that gets in the way. Okay?"
"Okay!" he exclaimed, sniffling his nose and beaming a smile her way before tossing his arms around her neck. "Lyublyu tebya, Fliss," he whispered as he hugged her tight.
"Love you back, teddy bear," she whispered against his ear, squeezing him fondly for as long as he wanted to hold on. "So ....I bet Dad would totally be up for getting ice cream if you tell him how heartbroken you are over me sleeping about fifty meters in that direction from now on."
Alexei laughed at the mention of ice cream, the storm cloud lifting. "Papa always wants ice cream. Mama said if he keeps eating it so much, he will get fat, and then he won't be able to Flame On," he told her with more boyish laughter.
"Knock knock," a decidedly masculine voice interjected. "Did someone say ice cream?" Johnny asked as he poked his head in the door.
Fliss snickered with her little brother, looking up as their dad knocked and looked in through the door. She didn't bother rushing to get up; they'd all known something was going to come to a head with Alex on the big day of the move. "I think my little brother and sisters need a pick me up this afternoon," she informed her father cheerfully, handing Alex up onto his own feet before moving to stand herself.
"Can we, Papa?" Alexei asked as he found his feet, turning those pleading puppy dog eyes on his father. "Pleeeease?" he asked, drawing the word out, as children sometimes did when they wanted something badly.
Johnny looked between Fliss and Alex, wondering what he'd just missed. It was hard to miss the fact that Alex had been crying, and it wasn't hard to figure out why. "It's fine with me, so long as it's okay with your mother," Johnny replied, knowing who wore the pants in the family. "Why don't you go ask her, while I help Fliss with her things?"
Alexei smiled up at his father. "Okay, Papa!" he replied before darting out of the room, his voice heard calling for his mother.
Fliss laughed faintly, watching Alexei out of the room before glancing up at Johnny. She gave him her worst impression of an innocent look. "What?"
"Trying to make him feel better by offering ice cream?" Johnny guessed as he stepped into the room and took a look around, a small frown on his own face. He wondered who was going to miss Fliss more - him or Alexei.
"Little bit, yeah." Fliss tilted her head as she looked up at Johnny. "You do know I'm not going to disappear, right?" she pointed out to her father. "I'm literally less than five minutes away." She laughed faintly. "If you and Alex start crying into your splits, I want Mom to take a picture."
Broken-hearted as Alexei was that his big sister - whom he obviously idolized - was moving out, he was determined not to cry - at least, not in front of anyone. "But ..." the little boy started, trying to desperately to find a good reason to make her stay. "Who's gonna help me with my homework?" he asked with what was left of his Russian accent.
"I will!" she promised him, tucking her arms around him to look into his eyes. "Honestly, peanut, all this is really going to change is that I won't be sleeping in here with Bella anymore. Sure, I have work at the fire station and my night classes, but Lucas is 'round here or at his mom's nearly every night for dinner, and now I'll be with him when he decides. I'm not going far away, and I'm not disappearing. I promise."
"But what about Bella?" he asked, now that Fliss had mentioned the dog that had become so attached to her over the last few years - anything, really, to convince her to stay. "Are you taking Bella with you?" he asked worriedly, wondering if he'd have to get used to the family dog not being around anymore either. Never mind the fact that the family had numerous other pets.
"Bella's staying here, peanut," Fliss promised him affectionately. "She's Dad's dog, really. And Lir is definitely your dragon, too." She bopped the end of his nose gently. "Look at it this way, little dude ....you get to move in here to the big bedroom, because you're the next oldest."
"But I don't want you to go!" Alexei blurted, practically bursting into tears as he flung himself at Fliss. He had given it his best shot. He had tried to hold back the tears; he had tried to convince her to stay. It wasn't like she was going far away - she was only moving in with Lucas - but who was he going to snuggle up with when the nightmares woke him in the night"
There was a delicate moment as Fliss caught him, careful to fall back onto her own rear end with her brother in her arms. She'd talked to her mom about dealing with this - she couldn't give in, or Alex was never going to learn to accept that change was a part of life. "Hey now, shhh ..." She hugged him close, rocking gently. "What's really bothering you about all this, hmm?"
It took him a moment of sobs and hiccups to control his voice enough that he could make a coherent reply, not to mention gather the courage he needed to explain, though he had never kept anything from Fliss. "Bad dreams," he told her bluntly, not really needing to explain more than that. And it wasn't just bad dreams about his own experiences, but his little sister's, too. He was the eldest son - the only son - and he didn't want to bother his parents with his problems when he was going on nearly nine years old.
She stroked her hand over his hair. "Peanut, it's time you let Mom and Dad know that you're still struggling," she told him quietly. "Keeping things like this a secret, even with good intentions, it just ends up hurting worse. You really think Mom and Dad would ever think badly of you because you still get nightmares now and then" Really?"
"They're busy and ....Mama gets tired and ....I don't want to wake her and ....I'm not a baby and ..." He broke off abruptly as he'd run out of ands. For the most part, Alexei was a happy, well-adjusted child, but one didn't go through what he and the others did without it having some lasting effect. "Are you and Lucas gonna get married?" he asked, curiously.
"Kiddo, I'm not a baby," Fliss pointed out. She was seventeen; Uncle Tony had given her a car; she was definitely not a baby anymore. "When I have problems, I go to Mom and Dad. That's part of what they're there for. And Mom would hate it for you to be struggling all on your own, when you could go and wake her up. Trust me, she would much rather be awake with you than have you be awake and sad on your own. Okay?" She tilted her head, gently wiping his cheeks with her fingers. His question made her smile. "I think maybe we will, someday," she told him quietly. "But we have so much time ahead of us, there's no rush."
Somehow Alexei understood that Fliss was growing up, but it wasn't her growing up that scared him so much as their growing apart. She was going to work and school and spending time with Lucas. Where exactly did he fit into her busy schedule" There would be no more sleepovers in the treehouse, no more blanket forts, no more movie or games nights, or if there were, they wouldn't be the same. Maybe it wasn't so much the nightmares that were bothering him as it was change. "When will we see you?" he asked, bluntly though she'd already answered that question in a way, looking at her with adoring eyes while she wiped his tears away.
Fliss eyed him with gentle amusement. "Okay, peanut, you know what? Let's make a date, just us. Once a week, no matter what, you and me are going to hang out. Sometimes we'll invite Mo and Bess, or Lucas, or even Mom and Dad, but no matter what, it'll be you and me. Sound good?"
"Really?" he asked, eyes widening, face brightening at the prospect of her making time just for him, whether it was just the two of them or the whole family. "Promise?" he asked, holding up his hand and spreading his fingers as he remembered something she'd taught him. "Pinky swear?"
"Absolutely promise." She held up her own hand, hooking her pinky finger around his. "We just gotta pick a day, and I'll make sure I don't have any shifts on that day, so there's nothing that gets in the way. Okay?"
"Okay!" he exclaimed, sniffling his nose and beaming a smile her way before tossing his arms around her neck. "Lyublyu tebya, Fliss," he whispered as he hugged her tight.
"Love you back, teddy bear," she whispered against his ear, squeezing him fondly for as long as he wanted to hold on. "So ....I bet Dad would totally be up for getting ice cream if you tell him how heartbroken you are over me sleeping about fifty meters in that direction from now on."
Alexei laughed at the mention of ice cream, the storm cloud lifting. "Papa always wants ice cream. Mama said if he keeps eating it so much, he will get fat, and then he won't be able to Flame On," he told her with more boyish laughter.
"Knock knock," a decidedly masculine voice interjected. "Did someone say ice cream?" Johnny asked as he poked his head in the door.
Fliss snickered with her little brother, looking up as their dad knocked and looked in through the door. She didn't bother rushing to get up; they'd all known something was going to come to a head with Alex on the big day of the move. "I think my little brother and sisters need a pick me up this afternoon," she informed her father cheerfully, handing Alex up onto his own feet before moving to stand herself.
"Can we, Papa?" Alexei asked as he found his feet, turning those pleading puppy dog eyes on his father. "Pleeeease?" he asked, drawing the word out, as children sometimes did when they wanted something badly.
Johnny looked between Fliss and Alex, wondering what he'd just missed. It was hard to miss the fact that Alex had been crying, and it wasn't hard to figure out why. "It's fine with me, so long as it's okay with your mother," Johnny replied, knowing who wore the pants in the family. "Why don't you go ask her, while I help Fliss with her things?"
Alexei smiled up at his father. "Okay, Papa!" he replied before darting out of the room, his voice heard calling for his mother.
Fliss laughed faintly, watching Alexei out of the room before glancing up at Johnny. She gave him her worst impression of an innocent look. "What?"
"Trying to make him feel better by offering ice cream?" Johnny guessed as he stepped into the room and took a look around, a small frown on his own face. He wondered who was going to miss Fliss more - him or Alexei.
"Little bit, yeah." Fliss tilted her head as she looked up at Johnny. "You do know I'm not going to disappear, right?" she pointed out to her father. "I'm literally less than five minutes away." She laughed faintly. "If you and Alex start crying into your splits, I want Mom to take a picture."