Topic: Darkness Before Me, Shadows Behind (AU Possible Future)

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:23 EST
This room was darkened, quiet, peaceful; the only light emanating from a small nightlight plugged into the wall, and a crack in the doorway to a brightly lit hall beyond. It was a small room, the floor left mostly bare, the furniture around the walls. A dresser, a chest, and a crib lined those walls, and keen eyes would spot the dangling arms of a mobile hanging above that crib. Beneath the blankets lay a small boy, not more than three years old, asleep in the silence, his arms wrapped tightly around an obviously much-loved teddy bear. From below drifted the sound of a television or radio. Normal sounds to fill a normal space.

And in the midst of all this, a dark shadow formed, swirling wildly in a vortex of silent blackness deeper than the shadows of the small nursery, disgorging with a violent thump the startled form of a very nude man onto the rug in the center of the room.

Not unlike the night Dean had found himself torn from his own world and thrust into another, he felt dizzy, disoriented, almost sick with the feeling of it, confused, close to blacking out. He wasn't sure what had happened or where he was, only that wherever it was, the room was spinning dizzily around him, and all he could do was wait until it stopped. It took a moment or two for that to happen before he lifted his head, stifling a groan so as not to draw any attention to himself, until he figured out what had happened. It was dark in the room, but not completely, and as his surroundings stopped moving and came into focus, he realized he was in someone's house, in a bedroom of sorts, but nothing looked even vaguely familiar.

The thump of his arrival had woken the little inhabitant of the room. Yet strangely, there were no tears, no cry of fright from the little boy who pulled himself onto his feet in the crib, his teddy hanging from one hand as he blinked blearily through the gloom. Green eyes focused on the shadowy figure of the man who had dropped into his bedroom, the open hand reaching up to tug on a string in the mobile. The decorative piece lit up, adding a better illumination to the room as the little boy peered down at Dean in silently wary fascination.

Dean pushed himself up from the floor, pressing a shaky hand against his own temple as he waited for the dizziness to pass and take in his surroundings. His attention was drawn to the sound of movement in the room and he turned toward what looked like a crib, a shadowy shape standing within the confines of that small space, looking out at him with eyes too much like his own, but full of wary curiosity.

"What the hell..." Dean muttered, moving slowly to his feet and turning in place to better examine his surroundings, shivering suddenly as a chill crept up his spine and he was mortified to realize he was naked. It was then he remembered what had happened. He'd been in bed with Nim, wrapped in her embrace, when some kind of creature had appeared in the room. He remembered hearing Apollo's voice shouting a warning, but it was too late. Dean lurched as the memory touched off another wave of dizziness and he grabbed hold of the first thing that was within reach to steady himself, which just happened to be that child's crib. The little boy's head tipped back to look up at the visitor to his bedroom, just as running footsteps made themselves known in the quiet. Barely moments after the sound of those feet became audible, the door to the bright hallway slammed open. "Sammy, get down!" a sharp, feminine voice snapped out, the boy dropped down onto his knees in the crib, and the unmistakeable report of a gun cracked through the room.

Once again, things were happening too quickly, and the dizziness had dulled his senses and slowed his reflexes. He heard the sound of footsteps and cast a glance around for a blanket or something to wrap around his waist, but was slow to do even that. He heard a woman's voice that seemed vaguely familiar shout his brother's name, followed by the crack of a gun, and then a sharp pain in his shoulder drove him backwards to collide with something hard and wooden before collapsing onto the floor with a thud and a groan.

Footsteps announced the woman walking into the room, pausing by the crib for a brief moment before retreating to the doorway once again. There was a click as the main light burst into life, flooding the scene with bright illumination. "Oh my god ....Dean?"

As the light came on to illuminate the scene, Dean was hunched over in a corner, clutching a bloody left shoulder with one hand, visibly trembling with shock and cold and confusion. He heard someone call his name, but the voice sounded distant, like the speaker was far away. He lifted his head at the sound of it, forcing himself to turn that way, a blurry form taking shape before him as he squinted in the suddenly brightly-lit room. He opened his mouth to speak but only one word name out, the name of the last person he'd seen before he'd been ripped from her arms. "Nim..."

"Oh god ..." There was a delicate pause as the woman in the doorway teetered on the edge of a decision. The quiet was broken by the child's voice, audibly curious.

"Momma, what?s Daddy doin'?"

"Shh, Sammy," the boy's mother told him quietly, crouching to set the child onto his feet. "I want you to go into my bedroom, and shut the door, okay' Don't you come out until I come get you." There was an audible sigh of disappointment from the little boy, but evidently he did as he was told, the quiet patter of footsteps disappearing down the hallway outside the room.

As soon as she heard a far door close, the woman advanced into the little nursery, dropping cautiously to one knee beside the man she had just shot. A clatter betrayed the lowering of her weapon to the wooden floor, and a gentle pair of hands reached to touch his arm and shoulder, carefully peeling his protecting fingers away. "Where did you come from?" she asked quietly, and finally there was something in that familiar voice to place her with. "This is impossible."

"Sam-Sammy..." Dean muttered, only half consciously-aware of what was going on, hearing a name spoken, looking over to find a small boy who looked achingly familiar and yet not so familiar look back at him before skittering out of the room. He didn't move from the corner, merely watching and waiting as the boy hurried away and a woman took his place, her face hovering in his field of vision, familiar but slightly different than he remembered. Confused and without even the clothes on his back, there was nothing he could do but surrender himself to her aid and try and sort out what had happened. "I don't..." he faltered, fumbling for words, pain like fire shooting through his shoulder.

The gentle fingers left his newest injury for a moment, one hand trailing down to touch against his left side. "No scar," that familiar voice said quietly. "You're not my Dean." There was the faintest suggestion of a sob, a quiet sound of deeply disappointed grief, before those gentle hands turned businesslike. "Come on, you're not bleeding all over my son's bedroom." She pulled him from the wall, wrapping an arm about his back to begin the difficult process of raising her injured visitor to his feet.

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:28 EST
He groaned again, clenching his jaw as he forced himself up, trying not to reach for her with a bloodied hand. She was Nim, but apparently not his Nim, if he was not, as she'd said, her Dean. He heard the sob, felt her hand trail against his left side, as if she was searching for something, recognized some sort of grief flowing from her, but, lacking the strength as yet to form words or ask questions, he focused all his attention on finding his balance and putting one foot in front of the other.

It was a difficult business, getting him out of the nursery and down the stairs of the small house he had fallen into. The Nimue at his side was at once stronger and more fragile than the woman he had left in a rush of unknown magic and danger. This Nimue was a little more strict, a lot less apt to smile, and definitely more inclined to act first and question later. He had a bullet in his shoulder to attest to that.

But eventually, Dean found himself sat at a table in a neat little kitchen, propped up between table and chair with a blanket wrapped about his waist. A bottle of whiskey was set close to his hand. "You're gonna want to drink a lot of that," she told him quietly. "This isn't gonna be pretty."

He pulled the blanket tighter, feeling suddenly a little too naked, a little too vulnerable around this Nim that wasn't his Nim, and he sank onto the chair, forcing his hand to stop shaking long enough to grab hold of the bottle. His words, when they came, were slow and held a tremor of pain, weariness, and confusion. "You always sh-shoot first and ask questions later?" he asked, lifting the bottle and taking a long, hard swallow.

A rattle betrayed that a pair of medicine bottles had joined the alcohol on the table - painkillers and antibiotics, probably - followed by the thump of a heavy-duty med-kit. Nimue - older, more careworn - drew her chair closer to him, wiping the excess blood away from the wound she had inflicted. "I have a three year old to protect," she pointed out in a matter-of-fact tone. "When it comes to Sammy, hell yes, I shoot first. I'm not losing him, too."

"Sammy..." Dean echoed, as he lowered the bottle and turned his gaze toward her, taking a closer look at her now, noticing she was Nim, but a few years older perhaps. She was wearing her hair slightly differently and there were a few faint lines in her face, but she was still as beautiful as ever. Where the hell was he" Heaven" Hell" Another alternate universe, perhaps" And then, he realized.

"Oh, God..." His face turned even paler, not from loss of blood, but from the shock of realizing where he was, where he must be. "What year is it?"

"Hold still," she frowned, wielding with unpleasantly business-like intent a pair of sturdy-looking tweezers. "This is gonna hurt." She waited until the metal prongs were deep in that puncture wound before realising she'd been asked a question, glancing at his pale face even as she dug around, searching for the bullet she'd put there. "It's 2016," she told him, dragging a small piece of iron from his flesh. "January 2nd, if that helps."

No sooner had he asked, and she was digging around inside that wound, looking for the bullet. He flinched instinctively when he felt the tweezers reach inside his shoulder, and he bit his lip hard enough to taste blood to stifle a groan of pain, his entire body tensing, a red haze filling his field of vision as she dug around inside him for that bullet, until he thought he'd scream for her to stop. It wasn't like the torture of Hell, no. Nothing could ever be as horrible as that, but it was taking all his fortitude to stop himself from yanking his arm out of her grasp.

"Jesus Christ," he hissed as she pulled a small shard of iron from his flesh. "Your bedside manner still sucks." He reached for the bottle again. One swallow wasn't nearly enough.

"Would you rather I put it back in?" Dropping the compacted bullet into a glass of water beside her with a pointed look in his direction, Nimue put the tweezers away, beginning the business of packing and dressing the relatively minor bullet wound. At least she had only shot to wound, not to kill. This woman had years of experience on the woman he had left behind him; if this woman had wanted him dead, he'd be dead. "You need to start explaining what you know. What were you doing in my son's bedroom, naked as jaybird?"

He took another long swallow from the bottle of whiskey before she had a chance to start poking around at the wound again. Once the bullet was out, the pain eased up enough so that he could start to think straight. The first thing that hit him was the year - four years in the future, if he was to believe what she'd said. The second was the boy whose room he'd wound up in - a boy who she'd called Sammy.

Once he had gulped enough whiskey to numb his senses somewhat, he set the bottle on the table and tried to keep still as he watched her tend to his shoulder, just as she had what seemed like so many years ago. "Maybe you'd like to tell me why you named your son Sam," he challenged, not missing the fact that she had claimed the boy as her own. Not your son, not our son, but my son.

Deft fingers tucked the clean pads securely against the wound in his shoulder, her eyes avoiding meeting his as she made certain that dressing was going to stay where she put it. "I've shot you once already," she reminded him pointedly, clearly nowhere near as trusting as the younger woman he had left behind him in 2012. Dull dark eyes rose to meet his. "I'll answer your question when you answer mine. And don't think for one second that you're safe just because you're Dean. If you've brought danger into this house, I will cut you down." And for a moment, she almost believed it, too ....but there was just too much pain in those eyes for Nimue to be able to kill him, no matter how often she threatened.

Green eyes flashed angrily when she dared to threaten him, especially after she'd already shot him, and he opened his mouth to retort to her threat with harsh words of his own, but then he suddenly remembered the pain he'd caused his Nim only a short time ago with hasty, thoughtless words, and he held his tongue. He paused a moment to take a harder look at her and recognized that though she didn't look all that much different than the Nimue he knew and loved, she had changed, grown harder, tougher, stronger. His expression softened, all the anger going out of him, leaving him with a strange mixture of sadness and curiosity. "What happened to you, Nim?"

If only he had stayed hard, angry, bristling at the way she spoke to him. That she could have handled; she could have stayed harsh in the face of his irritation. But the softness, the concern, the care ....Nimue couldn't take that. Abruptly she shook her head, turning away to rise from her chair, keeping her back to him as she leaned her hands on the edge of the sink closeby. The pain that radiated from her was raw, visceral, impossible to mistake.

In a voice so tight it was barely audible, she gave him the answer he was looking for, knowing it wouldn't be enough. "I had to tell Sammy that his daddy wasn't gonna be coming home ever again. That's what happened to me."

For a moment, she crumbled, one hand rising to dash away the tears almost before they fell, and then she was straightening once more, the grief shoved away behind the hard mask she had obviously grown too accustomed to wearing. "You should take some of those antibiotics, at least. Don't want to get you infected."

He watched as she turned away from him and walked away. She'd walked away from him once before, a long time ago, and he remembered the pain of it, not unlike the pain he was feeling now. He watched her, studied her, recognized that same pain in her - a grief that was rooted deep inside her soul - and he realized with a shock that it was because of him.

"Daddy..." he echoed, somewhat in awe, and yet, it made perfect sense. What else would they name their firstborn son, if not after Sam' "He's mine," he said, feeling that same mixture of wonder and sadness. They had a son.

And then the implications of the rest of her statement came to bear. He wasn't part of the picture anymore. What had happened to him' Had he left, disappeared, died" She hadn't exactly welcomed him with open arms. She was angry with him, it seemed. Why would she be angry with him' He furrowed his brows, trying to sort through what had happened, but he had no clues and nothing to go by. She'd asked him what he was doing there, and he didn't even have an answer for that.

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:31 EST
"I don't know how to talk about this." It was a difficult admission for her to make as she turned back to look at him, somehow needing that distance between them despite how much she just wanted him to be there. To stay. "I don't know whether I should be calling my husband you or him, and having you here is going to hurt Sam so much when you go." She squeezed her eyes shut, her head lowering once again. "Because I can't keep you. You don't have the scar, so you're not my Dean, and ....if you stay here, one day soon Sammy's just gonna disappear. I can't lose him. It was hard enough watching you die."

What the hell was she talking about' It didn't make sense. What scar" Why would Sammy disappear" What had she done" What had he done" Had he made the ultimate sacrifice to keep his wife and son safe" Wife and son. Those words felt like a punch in the gut, and he felt a wave of dizziness wash over him again. What the hell had happened over the course of the last four years, and more importantly, could it be changed"

His heart went out to her, recognizing her sorrow, her grief, her anger. Recognizing it because he'd so often felt it himself, but not right now. Right now, all he wanted to do was comfort and console her, but somehow he thought that might only make things worse. He couldn't stay here; this wasn't his time. "June 2012," he started to explain. "Nebraska. We were on our way to meet your father, remember?"

Drawing herself slowly back under control, Nimue wiped her cheeks dry, pushing away from the sink. "I ....I vaguely remember," she said slowly, searching through her memories as she tipped pills from both bottles into her palm, braving contact with his skin to hand painkillers and antibiotics into his grasp. "We got ambushed on the road through Fremont - Hades' dead army or whatever, I don't really remember what it was." A faint mirthless smile touched her lips as she settled into a crouch by a cabinet, opening it up. "Bill Harvelle took the heat. Died before he ever introduced himself."

Dean visibly paled as she shared that memory with him, hardly noticing the pills she had just handed him. "No," he replied, not wanting to believe it. It hadn't happened in his future yet, but it had in her past. Did that mean it was something that could or couldn't be changed" But before he could change anything, he'd have to find his way back, and that could be a problem. He turned his gaze to the bottle of amber liquid that stood on the table in front of him, not really seeing it, a faraway look in his eyes as he tried to sort out what the hell had happened.

"No..." he repeated, needing to tell her his side of things. "We were in a motel, in bed, talking and this....thing appeared out of nowhere." Dean closed his eyes to rekindle the memory and visualize what had happened before he'd found himself in his son's bedroom. "It had red eyes and tattoos and....It was going to plunge a stake in your back....I think. But I....I pushed you out of the way and....I ended up here somehow. I don't know what happpened after that."

As he spoke, she was busily rummaging through the contents of that lower cabinet, withdrawing various pieces of clothing before closing the door once again. Rising to her feet, she laid the bundle of cloth down on the table in front of him, a thoughtful frown creasing her brow. "Red eyes and tattoos," she repeated, confusion flickering through her gaze. "With a weapon?" Stepping back, she wrapped her arms about her waist for a moment, her gaze turning distant as she considered this. "But they don't use weapons, they - just the one?"

He closed his fingers around the pills she had laid in his hand, dimly aware of the pain throbbing in his shoulder, his thoughts far away as he tried to visualize the brief chaos that had taken place just before he'd found himself here. "Just one. He....It....had a stake, I think. A bone maybe, sharpened." He opened his eyes and remembering something else, he turned to her. "Apollo was there. He tried to warn you, but there wasn't enough time. All I could think of was keeping you safe."

"A fatal habit, it seems." She couldn't have stopped herself saying that even if she had tried. Letting out a low sigh, she shook her head. "Take the pills, get dressed," she told him. "I need to reassure Sammy before he gets frightened." She paused beside Dean's chair, her hand half-reaching to touch before she drew it away once again. "I won't be long. Be here."

"I should go. I don't belong here. It will only upset him," Dean told her, taking her words to heart, not wanting to upset her or their son, though he had no idea where to go or what to do. He needed some answers, and she was the only one who had them. "I'm sorry," he told her, though he wasn't sure what he was apologizing for exactly.

It wasn't like he'd chosen to be here, and if he hadn't gotten in the way, there was no telling what might have happened to her. He found himself thinking the same thoughts he had when he'd first arrived in Chicago, having no idea how he'd gotten there or why and feeling like he had no choice but to stay. Ironically, now that he'd been torn from that time and place, all he wanted to do was go back.

"It's not safe for you to go anywhere, not right now." She stepped back, waiting until he met her eyes. "And I will explain why, when Sammy's settled again. Just ....be patient, okay?" She patted the table near his hand, still not daring to touch him, and moved to the doorway, slipping out of sight.

A moment later, he heard her voice once again, this time warm and fond and more familiar than the wary hardness that marked her tone in the kitchen. "Samuel Robert Winchester, what did I tell you about doing what you're told?" As her footsteps mounted the stairs, there was an easily discernible giggle from the little boy. As daredevil and disobedient as his father, no doubt.

Whether she was right or not about it being safe, the truth was that without a little more knowledge about the future, he had nowhere else to go. He wasn't sure about Bobby or Brian, but unless he was mistaken, it seemed she was here alone - just her and their son. He got a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach about this particular future. He listened as she made her way up the stairs, the tone of her voice changing to that of a loving mother, and he felt his heart sink. It seemed his future self had already done enough damage, and he didn't want to hurt either of them anymore than they'd already been hurt. He had died, apparently, but how, when, why' How had everything - all their hopes and dreams - gone to hell"

Dean listened to Nim scold the boy that was their son. No, not his son. Not really. His future self's son. Samuel Robert, after Sam and Bobby" he wondered. The ache in his heart was starting to match that of his shoulder, and he uncurled his hand and tossed back the pills, reaching for the bottle of whiskey to chase them down, wincing at the slow burn in his throat and his chest. He took another swallow, the whiskey slowly numbing the pain, and moved to his feet to wash the blood from his hands and dress himself in the clothes that she'd laid on the table, wondering if they'd once belonged to him.

They fit him almost perfectly, attesting to the theory that they were, in fact, his clothes. A casual glance around the kitchen would reveal to him a dozen little signs that the loss suffered by mother and son was entirely too fresh, too recent; many little details scattered about the place, such as his name written large on the calendar beneath the date of January 24th, reminding everyone in the house of a birthday coming, a photograph of this older Nim and an older version of himself, wrapped around Sammy, grinning into a camera that other Dean was obviously holding over their heads. There were two other rooms on this lower level - a dining room that had clearly been converted into a cache of weapons and books and sundries, strangely touched with dust, and a small living room, where the two-person family obviously spent most of their time together.

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:36 EST
The gentle tap of footsteps down wooden stairs announced Nimue's return after a few minutes, and it seemed some part of her own equilibrium had been restored with a little time in her son's company. Her eyes lifted to Dean's face, her expression a heartbreaking mix of pain and longing and love. "He's settled now," she said quietly. "And we got a lot of talking to do."

He heard the boy's giggle at the top of the stairs and wanted to go join them - the family he'd always wanted - but they didn't really belong to him. They belonged to a Dean who was dead and gone, fairly recently from the looks of things.

By the time she came back downstairs, he had re-seated himself at the table, the bottle of whiskey over half drained. Fingers rubbed wearily at his temple as he leaned his head against his hand, one arm propped up by an elbow. It had been a long day, an endless day, and though he was tired, there was no rest for the weary. Not yet.

He lifted his head to look up at her, mirroring the expression on her face, mingled with weariness. "What happened" How'd I die?" he asked, almost afraid of the answer, but needing to know.

She winced, the flash of darker hurt and anger in her eyes making itself known plain as day for just a moment. "I might have guessed you'd ask that one straight off," she managed to say with some semblence of a level voice, moving to drop down into the chair beside his at the table. Her hands rose to clasp together against the smooth grain of the wooden top, her dark eyes fixed on the twist of her fingers. "Not that I would ever deny you knowing this," she added softly, drawing in a slow breath.

"Things were going well. All of us, every hunter, had the demons on the run; it looked like we might win, you know" But you and me, we were going after the big guns. We wanted to cut off the head." She let out a soft snort of laughter. "I swear, I think we were the only family in existence who could call a god to come and babysit when we needed him to. And then ....things started to go wrong."

To his credit, he only winced inwardly at the bitterness in her voice, as she seemed to blame him for something he hadn't even done yet, but he said nothing, letting her continue as she would. He leaned back in the chair, almost as she leaned forward, afraid to get too close to her, afraid of what might come of that. This wasn't his Nim - she was different - almost like a stranger to him.

"Apollo disappeared," Nimue went on, obviously struggling to just provide the facts, not to offer a commentary on how the past months in her lifetime had affected her. "Without him around to hold back the shadows, everything went dark. We haven't a sunrise in almost four months." She let out another snort of laughter, the sound fond as she smiled at a memory, shaking her head. "And you always used to poke at him about being the god of the sun, when the sun comes up on its own. Proved you wrong."

The smile faded once more. "Anyway, without sunlight, there weren't so many safe places anymore. People were under attack constantly, and there just aren't enough hunters in the world to keep a lid on that." She cleared her throat, her left hand rising to rub at her neck. The artificial light shining from the lamps flickered off a band of plain, polished silver on that hand's ring finger. "We got word that Persephone had surfaced. We couldn't pass it up, you know, a chance to hit Hades right where it hurt, weaken him if we could. But Demeter was around, too, and man, that bitch is protective." Nimue shook her head again, frowning. "There was no way I was gonna let you go after Persephone on your own, not with her mother watching her back, and besides that, I kinda had an advantage to hold over Demeter. You agreed with me, you said it was a good plan. And then when it came to it, you went protective on me."

She let out a shuddering sigh, dropping back into a lean as her hands rose to her face for a moment, hiding the bitter anger that marked her grief so badly. "You handcuffed me to a pipe out of sight, and you went after Persephone on your own. You got one lucky shot in before Demeter took you down, and you missed." Her voice faltered abruptly, her body leaning forward once again as she hid her face in her hands, her shoulders stiff with the effort of holding back the natural release of tears.

He listened quietly, patiently, mutely, while she explained it all - or most of it anyway. It was a lot to take in all at once, and though the names she mentioned were familiar from myth and legend, he had yet to meet them in his own time and place. He noticed the glint of silver on her left hand, a wedding ring still worn even after he had died. They had gotten married and had a child and tried to make it work, somehow managing to juggle family life and hunting - what he'd always thought to be an impossible task. But what really struck him from her story was the fact that she was blaming him, that he had done the exact same thing he'd done in Wichita, even after he'd promised never to do it again.

He watched in silent witness as she fought with her grief, which seemed still too fresh. He knew that pain, and he knew that though it faded and got easier with time, it never really went away completely. What was he supposed to say to all this" Should he apologize for his future self's stupid act of selfless heroism that had gotten himself killed and taken away her husband and the father of their child" "I promised I'd never do that again. I promised we were in this together," he tried to process what had happened, to understand why his future self had done what he'd done. She shook her head again, leaning back once more as her hands dropped into her waist. "I never should have told you I was pregnant again, that was the problem. Even though - even though being pregnant meant that Demeter wouldn't be able to hurt me, you still went white knight on me." Nimue let out a sharp huff of breath, wiping the tear tracks from her cheeks once again. "And Hades got his revenge for us trying to hurt his mate. He killed everyone ....Bobby, Brian, Rufus, even Ayden. And I ....I had to make a deal, so Sammy wouldn't be next on the list."

He paled, all the blood draining from his face, as she told him the rest of the story. So many dead, so much grief, and once again, it was all his fault....or would be in the future, if he didn't change things. He recognized the names - all but one. He wasn't sure who Ayden was, but would have asked, if she hadn't gone on to mention a deal to save their son. He clenched his jaw, his hands dropping to his sides and curling tightly closed, a rush of pulse pounding in his ears. "What's the deal?" he asked, his voice quiet as a whisper, dreading the answer to his question, already knowing what it was likely to be.

She lifted haunted eyes to him. "You need to see this before I can tell you." Rising to her feet, she gestured for him to rise with her, walking out of the kitchen and up the stairs. She led the way past Sammy's bedroom, glancing inside out of habit, and into the room beyond. It was obviously the room she'd shared with her Dean for several years; his belongings filled half the storage in the room, covered some of the surfaces. A pair of his boots stood by the end of the bed, just waiting for their owner to return and claim them.

Nimue walked across to the window, drawing back the heavy dark curtain that covered the glass pane. There were people in the street outside ....a crush of people standing silent, red eyes and black eyes trained up onto the house in which Dean stood. And worse was visible - smoke rising from wrecked buildings, piles of bodies in the streets, the sounds of fighting all around. Nimue swallowed hard as she leaned back against the wall. "If I raise a finger to try and stop them taking over, to defend anyone who comes to me, Sammy's dead and just like them."

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:40 EST
Dean followed her numbly up the stairs, past the room where he'd arrived - where his son was peacefully sleeping - into another bedroom that had so obviously belonged to them. He paused in the doorway, almost afraid to enter that room, to go to the window and see what it was she wanted to show him. He stood back from the window so that he couldn't be seen as he gazed out on that horrific view, worse than a nightmare, a living hell on earth.

This wasn't living, it wasn't life, it was nothing but torment. His mind raced as he looked out on that bleak landscape, the threat of evil watching closely, the torment of the living, and he felt the weight of utter despair and hopelessness. They'd thought him a hero, he and Sam. They'd stopped the Apocalypse only to have this happen instead.

He reached for the curtain, his fingers brushing hers, and he let it fall back into place, hiding that horrific vision from view once again. "I'm not gonna let this happen," he said, quietly, as if afraid those outside might hear his voice and renege on the deal. He turned to face her, tentatively reaching for her hand.

Her eyes followed the slow stretch of his arm as he reached toward her, and the ache to touch, to be touched, was written plain on her face. Her own fingers stretched from where they lay against her thigh, fingertips just barely grazing his before her hand lifted, pressing her palm into his grasp. A low sigh escaped her lips, the softness of the woman he had left behind abruptly there in this Nimue's face, bridging the gap between his present and this future. "It's only a matter of time before Hades offers me another deal for the baby," she confessed in a shaking whisper. "I don't know what else I can give up that he'll want."

His palm pressed against hers, and he saw his Nim in her face, in the softening of her touch, and the love she still felt for him, even in her anger and her grief. His linked his fingers with hers, a simple touch, but one that was symbolic of the bond between them, the promises made, the love they'd shared. "This isn't living, Nim. You're a hunter. You can't give up. You never give up. You hear me?" He moved closer, lifting her chin to face him, green eyes hard with determination.

Water dripped from her lashes as she stared into his eyes, barely hearing a word he said. He was there, standing in front of her, when barely three months before she had watched him die, helpless to prevent it. "But I can't be a hunter anymore," she protested tearfully. "I can't lose Sammy, Dean, I can't." The hand that wasn't caught in his rose to touch trembling fingers to his cheek. "Every day I wake up, and you're not there. And I know you're not coming back. I miss you, so much."

So, now she understood the depth of pain he'd felt at her death, though she had their son to give her comfort, what little comfort he was in such a desolute and hopeless future as this. He saw the tears in her eyes, the grief on her face, and he felt as if his heart was breaking, along with hers. Part of him understood why his future self had done what he had. He had done it to protect her and their unborn child, but in doing so, he'd condemned them to a life that was arguably a worse fate than death.

He slid his arms around her, pulling her into his embrace, taking a chance, feeling she needed to know he was really here, really real, if only for a while. His heart was beating softly against hers, holding her in that same warm embrace he thought she must remember. "I know this sounds crazy, but this hasn't happened yet. Not in my future. It can still be changed, and I'm going to change it."

She resisted for barely a split second against the encompassing draw of his arms about her before relaxing into him, hiding her face in the curve of his neck as her own arms wrapped about his waist, her hands clutching tightly to his back. Could he change this" Was it really possible that he could, somehow, go back to that time before everything had gone to hell and make sure this living nightmare never happened" "Oh god, please," she breathed, clinging to him in a brief paroxysm of hope and pain and grief. "I'd give anything to prevent this."

Dean held Nimue close, all too aware of the fact that if he screwed up this time, it was likely all hope was lost. The world as they knew it would cease to exist, and perhaps more importantly to Dean, his wife and children would perish with it or worse. At this point, he thought death was a better option than life in this world, but he had seen a dismal future once before and knew it was not yet a certainty. Dean held her close for a long moment, offering as much comfort as he could, as he considered his options. Staying here wasn't one of them. The best plan was going back to his own time where he belonged and making sure they didn't make the same mistakes in the future.

He felt exhausted and in pain, but he'd been there before and refused to simply give up, especially knowing what he knew now - they were going to be married and have not only one child, but possibly two. It was his fault the world had gone to hell, and he wasn't going to abandon them to it without doing something about it.

"I promise, Nim," he told her quietly as he held her close. "I'm not going to abandon you to this." He lifted her chin to meet his gaze, looking tired and pale, but determined. "I swear to God, I'm going to change things, but I need your help."

He couldn't know that just by holding her, he was healing some of the pain and anger that had been boiling up inside the woman since the moment of his future self's death. Her tears were long since dry by the time he drew her face upward, their eyes meeting in a clash of wills he would no doubt become used to over the years he had ahead of him. "You shouldn't," she shook her head, fingers curling to clench into his shirt as she frowned. "We should just get you back to your own time, as fast as we can. If you put yourself in the firing line, Dean, none of this'll matter at all."

He frowned as he looked down at her, knowing she was right. The longer he stayed, the more risk that someone would find out he was there, and if anything happened to him in the future, there would be no way to go back to the past and fix things. "I have an idea, but I need some time," he told her, a brush of fingers against her cheek to dry any leftover tears. "I need to research a spell."

Chewing on her lower lip, the older Nim sighed softly, dropping her gaze from his. She stared for a long time at the grip of her hands in his shirt before realising that what she was feeling, along with the longing, relief, and pain, was guilt. She felt as though she was on the cusp of being unfaithful, of tempting him to be unfaithful, just by letting him comfort her. Best simply to concentrate on getting him home.

Sliding her hands back into her pockets, she looked up at him once again. "Uh ....I raided as much of Bobby's stuff as I could after he -" She cut herself off, not wanting to say it. "You always said that if you didn't have something, he'd have it. It's all downstairs; books in the library, everything else in the basement."

Reluctantly, he let her pull away from him, his heart heavy. He had no qualms about his faithfulness. Whether she was a future form of herself didn't matter; to him, she was still his Nimue. But there was no time for that now. He had to figure out a way to get himself home and quickly. He knew of one spell that might take him home, but he had no clue if he'd end up back in his own universe with Sam or back in 2012 with Nim and had ruled it out as too risky. He had a couple of other tricks up his sleeve, as well, but without enough knowledge of this time and place, he wasn't sure they'd work either.

"Did I keep a journal?" he asked, his mind mulling over the possibilities and what needed doing first and foremost.

Jo Winchester

Date: 2012-07-18 14:46 EST
The snort of laughter this question brought forth was followed swiftly by a suddenly wide and totally unforced grin, stripping the lines and cares from her face for the brief moments that smile was in place. "You really need to ask that?"

Nimue rolled her eyes, the shake of her head this time wry, amused by his ridiculous question. She stepped by him, bending down to rummage about underneath the bed. After a moment of that rummaging, she let out a soft grunt, dropping down onto one knee instead as one hand laid gently over the little bump at her waistline.

"Sorry, baby," she apologised to the little life inside her. "I know you don't like these jeans - there it is!" Straightening up again, she pulled a thick leatherbound journal out from the recesses under the bed, offering it toward Dean with a shrug. "There didn't seem much point me keeping it to hand after I made my bed."

He frowned as he watched her rummage beneath the bed, hearing the quiet apology to the unborn child she was carrying inside her. Now that he knew she was with child, he wondered why he hadn't noticed the small swell just below her waist before. Hadn't they been talking about the possibility of children just before they'd been attacked" No, not they. Before she had been attacked. Why would anyone want to hurt her, he wondered" He took the leatherbound journal from her, feeling that old familiar weight of responsibility bearing on his shoulders again. "I think someone was trying to kill you," he told her as he took the journal from her, one hand sliding over the cover.

His failure to notice her little bump was explained easily by the fall of her sweater as she stood up again. The thick wool easily disguised the changing shape of her womb, though it was unlikely that she had dressed purely for that purpose. She shifted about, sitting on the edge of the bed as she looked up at him with a faint frown. "Me" Oh, you mean ....four years ago." She shrugged lightly once again. "You can make yourself comfortable, you know, you are gonna be here a while." One hand patted the bed, inviting him to sit down unthinkingly as she took up the line of conversation again. "What makes you think whatever it was, was after me?"

He remained standing, feeling suddenly awkward about taking a seat beside her, almost afraid to be that close to her. Whether she was from his future or not, she was still Nimue, and he couldn't deny that he loved her. It was hard enough trying to focus his mind without dwelling on the fact that they had a son, that she was pregnant. If not for the horror outside the window, it would be a very tempting future, but one he might yet salvage. "Whatever it was had red eyes, dark skin, and tattoos. And it was aiming for you. If I hadn't pushed you out of the way..." He broke off, realizing that the thing hadn't killed him, but instead had somehow sent him to the future, but why' "Why would Hades want to bring you here?"

Nimue was silent for a long moment, her mind leaping through every possible consequence, every possible reaction to the intended plan, and each time returning to the one that was most terrifying. "Because presented with a doppleganger of myself, I'd have shot to kill," she said quietly, staring at the heavy blackout curtains. "Any hunter would. And without Apollo to undo the damage in time, that would be it. No more Nim, in this time or yours." Those familiar yet unfamiliar dark eyes found Dean's once again. "Hades must have found out about you being brought to this reality sooner than we first thought. The thing with red eyes ....it's a hybrid of demon and human soul, created by Hades. It can only possess dead bodies, and usually they don't use weapons, or attack on their own. He uses them to overwhelm people, not for surgical strikes. Unless ..."

Her eyes narrowed thoughtfully for a moment. "You said June 2012. He hadn't fully taken control of the Underworld by then; he didn't have the demons under his control. So of course he'd use his new creations ....and that's what the ambush that killed Bill Harvelle was about."

Whatever Dean was feeling - guilt, shock, sadness, regret, even fear - was pushed aside as she answered his question, explaining what it was that had attacked them, filling in the blanks so that the puzzle pieces starting fitting together. "You need to tell me everything." He handed her his journal. "Write it down. Everything you can remember, no matter how big or how small. I have to know what happened, so we don't make the same mistakes again."

"You have any coffee?" he asked. It was going to be a while before he could surrender himself to sleep. Days maybe, he wasn't sure. "Where are Bobby's spell books?"

"That'll take hours," she warned him, but made no attempt to push the journal away, taking it into her hands with an affectionate stroke of her fingers over the worn leather. As he started asking questions, a tiny smile quirked just the corner of her mouth, her gaze softening in the face of something that she had seen many times in the last four years of her life and had thought she would never see again. "Coffee's in the kitchen, Bobby's books are in the library. I'll show you." Rising to her feet, she hugged the journal close, gesturing for him to lead the way into the hall.

He knew it would take time to remember and relate what had happened over the last four years, but it was important. It would equally take time to pour over Bobby's books, his journal, his spellbook, looking for some way to get back to his own time. If worse came to worse, he had an ace up his sleeve, but only as a last resort. He paused as she moved to her feet, his gaze drifting downward to the small bump beneath her shirt. "We're not going down without a fight, Nim. It isn't over until I say it's over."

Something in the way he spoke, in the force of his words and the intention behind them, broke some significant barrier in her heart. One hand rose to touch his jaw, daring to cross that boundary just long enough to press a long-overdue kiss to his cheek. "Thank you," she murmured fervently. "I haven't had hope in a long time. You lead the way, and I'll find it again. I promise."

A small smile lit his face at her show of gratitude. "I'd walk through fire for you," he told her quietly. In a way, he'd come back from the dead for her, even if it had been a twist of fate that had sent him here. Everything happens for a reason, he'd once been told. He'd never really believed that, but just maybe it was true.

She held his gaze, her expression fond but stern in those moments. "Just get home safe," she told him in a low voice, "and all sins are forgiven." Her thumb swept over his cheekbone before her hand fell back to her side. "Now get your a$$ downstairs and start researching. I'll get the coffee."

Despite the circumstances, he couldn't help but smile. "Yes, dear," he replied, wondering how often he said that in her past that was his future. He hesitated a moment before leaning forward to press an affectionate kiss against her forehead. "I love you," he told her, somehow the words coming easier, knowing perhaps this Nim needed to hear them more than ever.

Turning, he headed toward the door and out into the hallway, pausing for just a moment outside the bedroom where he'd arrived only a short while ago. He frowned briefly as he thought about the son who was sleeping inside that room, though if all went well, he'd know that son again in the future, and he'd live to see him grow up.

((A Post-Apocalypse Apocalypse, huh' Looks like Dean might have to save the world again. Shame. :grin: Thanks, as always, to the awesomesauce that is Dean's player for letting me catapault him through time NAKED and then SHOOTING him! ::cackles::))