Elessaria slipped silently from Tass and Kitty's manor after passing the first dreamless night of sleep since her return from Evandar. She had penned a quick note of thanks for the much needed sanctuary they had provided before she departed feeling a bit more grounded and at ease. A night of too much whiskey on top of a heart that weighed heavily was too much for the empath to bear in the solitude of her own home. Michael's work kept him out many nights, through no fault of his own; but, after the brutal killing of her peahen, Eless did not wish to stay there alone.
The merriment of the Beltane festivities had done much to restore her empathy; yet her true magical gifts remained depleted from the emotional and intricate workings she had completed to help heal her homeland— even time with Tass, which usually healed her, had not succeeded. A thought....a sense....something intangible pricked at her subconscious and Eless simply attributed it to the current season. The chaotic storm of emotions that swept through RhyDin every Spring only seemed to continue to keep her off balance and it was a constant struggle to keep from drowning beneath the surging sentiments. Lurking underneath it all was the steadily growing fear of abandonment that gnawed endlessly at her tender heart. And when she saw Kendall the other night in the Inn, Michael's words flew back to haunt her, the trepidation increasing. It was a genuine fear that plagued a sensitive young woman whom many believed to have it all.
Caught up in her thoughts, Elessaria's wanderings were not as aimless as she had originally thought. The telltale shards of marble that hid within the weeds signalled to her barefeet first that she had arrived in the ruins of Asheby Manor, her former home here in RhyDin. Only a few weeks ago she had paid her respects to her family and her people who had perished in order for her to live. Now it was time for her to visit another grave. She could feel her heart tighten in her chest when her eyes found the rose granite marker, but before she knelt upon the well tended resting place of her unborn daughter, she took the time to gather a gift of early Spring flowers. Her fingers trembled as she threaded her way through the weeds and brambles that now made up what had been the glorious gardens, plucking a few stray blooms of fragrant freesia, lilies of the valley and some wild violets.
The morning's dew was damp against the bare skin of her knees, and she tossed her shoes to one side as she reverently placed the tiny bouquet against the cold stone. Eless brushed away a few of the dried leaves that had been discarded by the wind; they crumpled noisily with her dismissal. She sat back on her heels with a delicate finger tracing the name etched against the rose background, tears filling her eyes of blue flame. The diminutive elfess dipped forward at the waist to press her soft lips against the chilled, smooth surface and closed her eyes against the shower of tears. A slight shift moved her forehead to rest next to the carved angel and she gave in to the grief that flooded through her petite form.
Dark clouds filled the skies above and the wind began to kick up, once more rearranging autumn leaves to suit Mother Nature. Heedless of the cold rain that had started to drip steadily down, Elessaria kept her eyes closed. Words of prayers and petition were lost amidst muffled mews of sorrow and her tears drenched her as equally as the rains. A sudden streak of lightening tore against the darkened sky, followed quickly by a thunderous clap that somehow managed to reach through to her senses. She floundered against the heavy sadness to raise her head and brush away the hot tears that clung to her pale features. Dimly she registered the all too familiar metallic tang of blood and the crimson stains upon her shaking palms. Another sharp crack of the brewing tempest was timed perfectly with a severe, sudden pain in her head and The Lady Fire of Evandar was plunged into darkness.
~Can you help me out" Can you let me a hand" It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light I just can't figure out How to make it right
A thousand times before I've wondered if there's something more Something more...
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days So let it rain down and wash everything away I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain For days and days I feel it's gonna rain
I tried to figure out I can understand What it means to live on again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence Nothings real Nothings making sense~ Lyrics from Rain by Creed.
The merriment of the Beltane festivities had done much to restore her empathy; yet her true magical gifts remained depleted from the emotional and intricate workings she had completed to help heal her homeland— even time with Tass, which usually healed her, had not succeeded. A thought....a sense....something intangible pricked at her subconscious and Eless simply attributed it to the current season. The chaotic storm of emotions that swept through RhyDin every Spring only seemed to continue to keep her off balance and it was a constant struggle to keep from drowning beneath the surging sentiments. Lurking underneath it all was the steadily growing fear of abandonment that gnawed endlessly at her tender heart. And when she saw Kendall the other night in the Inn, Michael's words flew back to haunt her, the trepidation increasing. It was a genuine fear that plagued a sensitive young woman whom many believed to have it all.
Caught up in her thoughts, Elessaria's wanderings were not as aimless as she had originally thought. The telltale shards of marble that hid within the weeds signalled to her barefeet first that she had arrived in the ruins of Asheby Manor, her former home here in RhyDin. Only a few weeks ago she had paid her respects to her family and her people who had perished in order for her to live. Now it was time for her to visit another grave. She could feel her heart tighten in her chest when her eyes found the rose granite marker, but before she knelt upon the well tended resting place of her unborn daughter, she took the time to gather a gift of early Spring flowers. Her fingers trembled as she threaded her way through the weeds and brambles that now made up what had been the glorious gardens, plucking a few stray blooms of fragrant freesia, lilies of the valley and some wild violets.
The morning's dew was damp against the bare skin of her knees, and she tossed her shoes to one side as she reverently placed the tiny bouquet against the cold stone. Eless brushed away a few of the dried leaves that had been discarded by the wind; they crumpled noisily with her dismissal. She sat back on her heels with a delicate finger tracing the name etched against the rose background, tears filling her eyes of blue flame. The diminutive elfess dipped forward at the waist to press her soft lips against the chilled, smooth surface and closed her eyes against the shower of tears. A slight shift moved her forehead to rest next to the carved angel and she gave in to the grief that flooded through her petite form.
Dark clouds filled the skies above and the wind began to kick up, once more rearranging autumn leaves to suit Mother Nature. Heedless of the cold rain that had started to drip steadily down, Elessaria kept her eyes closed. Words of prayers and petition were lost amidst muffled mews of sorrow and her tears drenched her as equally as the rains. A sudden streak of lightening tore against the darkened sky, followed quickly by a thunderous clap that somehow managed to reach through to her senses. She floundered against the heavy sadness to raise her head and brush away the hot tears that clung to her pale features. Dimly she registered the all too familiar metallic tang of blood and the crimson stains upon her shaking palms. Another sharp crack of the brewing tempest was timed perfectly with a severe, sudden pain in her head and The Lady Fire of Evandar was plunged into darkness.
~Can you help me out" Can you let me a hand" It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light I just can't figure out How to make it right
A thousand times before I've wondered if there's something more Something more...
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days So let it rain down and wash everything away I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain For days and days I feel it's gonna rain
I tried to figure out I can understand What it means to live on again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence Nothings real Nothings making sense~ Lyrics from Rain by Creed.