He was right. This is suffocating.
Sivanna hadn't been able to stop thinking about him since that night, the man she had met. His pale skin still turned her stomach. His lack of smell was discomfiting. He was an anomaly'something she did not know, and as a result found herself worrying about for uncomfortably long periods of time. The lack of knowledge had frustrated her even then, and the moment she had walked out the door that night and away from him she had made up her mind to write him out of her thoughts forever.
But try as she might, she could not erase that encounter from her mind. And for the third night in a row, she could not stop herself from restlessly playing it over again in her head.
—-
"It is like being trapped in a cocoon of warm flesh. It will suffocate you if you are not wary."
Sivanna poured, silently, as she stood behind the bar in the Red Dragon Inn. It was not an uncomfortable silence. Nothing with alcohol ever was. After turning over the strange, pale entity's words in her head, she lifted a shoulder dismissively.
"That all depends on what sort you resign yourself to," she returned just as vaguely, bringing her martini glass to her lips. The two of them had just begun interacting for the very first time, and already the conversation was becoming metaphysical. This would be interesting.
Once a glass of water was set before him, the slender man took it up and drained it in a matter of seconds. Carefully he set the glass back down. His fingers tapped along the crystalline sides of the vessel with tiny little tap-tap-taps.
"Who are you?" he asked, climbing onto a stool to peer across the bar through the thick, dark lenses that shaded his eyes.
"I am Sivanna," the cleric replied cordially, bowing her head at the man. "And you?"
"There are people in this place who lie to you and me. They are not who they pretend to be, but you cannot run from what you are. No matter how fast your legs move. A name is a name, it is useless. It is not who you are, it is who you think you are," his head shook, again with that same jerking motion as before. "I am an amalgamation. Who I am is not so important as who you are, or who she is," a crooked thumb jerked up. "I am not here for who I am."
"Then why are you?" Sivanna pressed, genuinely interested.
"To find me," the man replied, his neck craning in a birdlike gesture. "You did not answer my question."
"I am the identity that I create for myself. The name that I have is an embodiment of that identity," the cleric explained of the man, her amusement undisguised as she poured more vodka and Cointreau into the martini shaker and added ice.
The man did not move. "You are lying."
In another life Sivanna might have gotten defensive, but this one was too altogether interesting. "I speak what I know. I do not lie."
A crooked smile etched itself across the slender man's face. His nearly translucent skin was stretched tight over the sharp bones of his cheeks and jaw, and in the poor light of the Inn the expression appeared almost ghastly.
"You will know," he said, leaning forward as his voice dropped to a whisper. "That there is a part of you that you cannot see, and when it breaks the veil, you will be whole. Until then, you are broken." He paused but a moment, continuing even as Sivanna's gaze became sharp. "But you are more whole than some. You have come close to this before, maybe. To this other half. To yourself. There is hope for you, but it is slim. You do not possess the sight necessary to see the way."
All amusement drained from Sivanna's visage, leaving only a feral kind of sardonicism. She had affiliated herself with his type before. By trial and error, she had learned how to deal with them. To the man, the cleric offered a smile. It was feral. Dangerous. She met his lean with a lean of her own, bringing her face far too close to his. There was no surprise that he lacked any body heat. "And where do I retrieve this sight?"
He remained eerily unmoving. "I will tell you a secret, but you must be willing to hear it. You must ask, or I cannot tell it."
"If I don't know the question, I will never know the answer, uma?" Her almond-shaped eyes slanted just as dangerously as she ran her fingertip along the mouth of her 'tini glass. She would need a refill soon.
"You have heard the words before, you know the question. It is on the tip of your tongue, I can taste it," a hand lifted, his thin finger flicking up to push the glasses up into his wild mane of hair. His eyes were black. There was never a black so dark as that of his gaze, nothing so dark. "You must ask for it."
An unsettling feeling had been growing inside Sivanna since the conversation's outset. She needed to end it. "I am sorry, but I don't know what you are talking about." Politely, she pulled a bottle of water clear from the ice box and set it before the man, poised to vacate her position behind the bar. Though she doubted the hairs on the back of her neck would stop standing any time soon.
A sigh blew past the man's lips, harsh and cold like the winter wind. "Perhaps I was mistaken. You are not so close as I had assumed. Give me your hand," he reached out, laying his hand on the bar with the palm facing up. "And you will see."
The cleric stared long and hard at the offered hand, then at the pads of her own fingers, contemplative. Though it had been months since the she had rid herself of the taint, whenever Sivanna looked at her hands she still saw the necrotic, dying flesh that signified her demise. Even then, when she touched others she half expected them to recoil as Sal had.
She still hesitated touching things. But there were so many questions that she had about this anomaly she was speaking to that needed answering. So, after another cursory glance at the man's person, Sivanna exhaled a silent command, invoking a precautionary dose of black magic into her veins and surrendered her hand to his.
His pale fingers closed around her hand and clamped tight. Almost immediately, the veins visible past his thin, pale skin turned black and his fingertips split open with fine slits. A dark liquid oozed out like ink and coalesced into a small, black dot on the center of her hand. It faded, leaving no other marking or feeling.
At the first sign of black, the elfess snapped her hand back, hissing in recoil and warning. An inky pitch flooded her eyes as she called upon her god, Nuitari, to bless her with a heightened concentration of dark magic. It burned in her veins and made her voice gritty and lethal. "What did you do?" she rasped.
He released her willingly; smiled that crooked smile again. "The first veil has fallen."
"The first what?"
"I have helped you take the first step. You will find me in a few days time, or I will find you, and then you may take the second."
Something unraveled within Sivanna. She became shaky, uneasy as though she could not catch her breath. Finding a martini glass still in her hand, she promptly upended it and drained the last of the vodka from within.
During the course of her introspection, the slender man had contented himself with chatting to another patron. "Names are unimportant," he was telling her. "Your deeds do not matter when you still see through the veil." Suddenly his gaze landed on Sivanna, next. "The more you drink, the worse they will become."
That brought pause. Enough for her to circle around, slap a hand before the slender man and bring her teeth to his ear.
"Do not speak as though you know me," she hissed, permitting the dark magic to color her words with malevolence. It was thrilling and comforting all at once. "You are nothing, and can be made thus just as easily."
He was gone in the blink of an eye, melting into the shadows beneath him as Sivanna moved away, though his whispering voice echoed in her ears.
"I see what you can become. I can help you be whole again. You are broken. I will fix you."
—-
She didn't need fixing. But he was right in some sense. She was suffocating.
Leaving her dozing husband and the comfort of a warm bed, Sivanna moved into the bathroom and studied her reflection in the mirror.
There was anger, there. And fear. She could read herself like a book, and so it was probably no surprise that the man she had encountered in the Inn could just as easily. It was a startling feeling?like she was losing her grip on something. She had felt something like this before when she had apprenticed under a lich named Raithmoore, when it took attacking her own husband to be convinced that she was being controlled under the lich's influence. She felt it again when she was staring past the barrel of a SigSauer at the half-elf, Faith, who had almost undone everything Sivanna had worked toward since leaving Silvanost.
It was an unsettling, exhilarating kind of anger that she felt. Something was unraveling. But it was different this time.
This time, it felt right.
((Adapted from live play with The Slender Man.))
Sivanna hadn't been able to stop thinking about him since that night, the man she had met. His pale skin still turned her stomach. His lack of smell was discomfiting. He was an anomaly'something she did not know, and as a result found herself worrying about for uncomfortably long periods of time. The lack of knowledge had frustrated her even then, and the moment she had walked out the door that night and away from him she had made up her mind to write him out of her thoughts forever.
But try as she might, she could not erase that encounter from her mind. And for the third night in a row, she could not stop herself from restlessly playing it over again in her head.
—-
"It is like being trapped in a cocoon of warm flesh. It will suffocate you if you are not wary."
Sivanna poured, silently, as she stood behind the bar in the Red Dragon Inn. It was not an uncomfortable silence. Nothing with alcohol ever was. After turning over the strange, pale entity's words in her head, she lifted a shoulder dismissively.
"That all depends on what sort you resign yourself to," she returned just as vaguely, bringing her martini glass to her lips. The two of them had just begun interacting for the very first time, and already the conversation was becoming metaphysical. This would be interesting.
Once a glass of water was set before him, the slender man took it up and drained it in a matter of seconds. Carefully he set the glass back down. His fingers tapped along the crystalline sides of the vessel with tiny little tap-tap-taps.
"Who are you?" he asked, climbing onto a stool to peer across the bar through the thick, dark lenses that shaded his eyes.
"I am Sivanna," the cleric replied cordially, bowing her head at the man. "And you?"
"There are people in this place who lie to you and me. They are not who they pretend to be, but you cannot run from what you are. No matter how fast your legs move. A name is a name, it is useless. It is not who you are, it is who you think you are," his head shook, again with that same jerking motion as before. "I am an amalgamation. Who I am is not so important as who you are, or who she is," a crooked thumb jerked up. "I am not here for who I am."
"Then why are you?" Sivanna pressed, genuinely interested.
"To find me," the man replied, his neck craning in a birdlike gesture. "You did not answer my question."
"I am the identity that I create for myself. The name that I have is an embodiment of that identity," the cleric explained of the man, her amusement undisguised as she poured more vodka and Cointreau into the martini shaker and added ice.
The man did not move. "You are lying."
In another life Sivanna might have gotten defensive, but this one was too altogether interesting. "I speak what I know. I do not lie."
A crooked smile etched itself across the slender man's face. His nearly translucent skin was stretched tight over the sharp bones of his cheeks and jaw, and in the poor light of the Inn the expression appeared almost ghastly.
"You will know," he said, leaning forward as his voice dropped to a whisper. "That there is a part of you that you cannot see, and when it breaks the veil, you will be whole. Until then, you are broken." He paused but a moment, continuing even as Sivanna's gaze became sharp. "But you are more whole than some. You have come close to this before, maybe. To this other half. To yourself. There is hope for you, but it is slim. You do not possess the sight necessary to see the way."
All amusement drained from Sivanna's visage, leaving only a feral kind of sardonicism. She had affiliated herself with his type before. By trial and error, she had learned how to deal with them. To the man, the cleric offered a smile. It was feral. Dangerous. She met his lean with a lean of her own, bringing her face far too close to his. There was no surprise that he lacked any body heat. "And where do I retrieve this sight?"
He remained eerily unmoving. "I will tell you a secret, but you must be willing to hear it. You must ask, or I cannot tell it."
"If I don't know the question, I will never know the answer, uma?" Her almond-shaped eyes slanted just as dangerously as she ran her fingertip along the mouth of her 'tini glass. She would need a refill soon.
"You have heard the words before, you know the question. It is on the tip of your tongue, I can taste it," a hand lifted, his thin finger flicking up to push the glasses up into his wild mane of hair. His eyes were black. There was never a black so dark as that of his gaze, nothing so dark. "You must ask for it."
An unsettling feeling had been growing inside Sivanna since the conversation's outset. She needed to end it. "I am sorry, but I don't know what you are talking about." Politely, she pulled a bottle of water clear from the ice box and set it before the man, poised to vacate her position behind the bar. Though she doubted the hairs on the back of her neck would stop standing any time soon.
A sigh blew past the man's lips, harsh and cold like the winter wind. "Perhaps I was mistaken. You are not so close as I had assumed. Give me your hand," he reached out, laying his hand on the bar with the palm facing up. "And you will see."
The cleric stared long and hard at the offered hand, then at the pads of her own fingers, contemplative. Though it had been months since the she had rid herself of the taint, whenever Sivanna looked at her hands she still saw the necrotic, dying flesh that signified her demise. Even then, when she touched others she half expected them to recoil as Sal had.
She still hesitated touching things. But there were so many questions that she had about this anomaly she was speaking to that needed answering. So, after another cursory glance at the man's person, Sivanna exhaled a silent command, invoking a precautionary dose of black magic into her veins and surrendered her hand to his.
His pale fingers closed around her hand and clamped tight. Almost immediately, the veins visible past his thin, pale skin turned black and his fingertips split open with fine slits. A dark liquid oozed out like ink and coalesced into a small, black dot on the center of her hand. It faded, leaving no other marking or feeling.
At the first sign of black, the elfess snapped her hand back, hissing in recoil and warning. An inky pitch flooded her eyes as she called upon her god, Nuitari, to bless her with a heightened concentration of dark magic. It burned in her veins and made her voice gritty and lethal. "What did you do?" she rasped.
He released her willingly; smiled that crooked smile again. "The first veil has fallen."
"The first what?"
"I have helped you take the first step. You will find me in a few days time, or I will find you, and then you may take the second."
Something unraveled within Sivanna. She became shaky, uneasy as though she could not catch her breath. Finding a martini glass still in her hand, she promptly upended it and drained the last of the vodka from within.
During the course of her introspection, the slender man had contented himself with chatting to another patron. "Names are unimportant," he was telling her. "Your deeds do not matter when you still see through the veil." Suddenly his gaze landed on Sivanna, next. "The more you drink, the worse they will become."
That brought pause. Enough for her to circle around, slap a hand before the slender man and bring her teeth to his ear.
"Do not speak as though you know me," she hissed, permitting the dark magic to color her words with malevolence. It was thrilling and comforting all at once. "You are nothing, and can be made thus just as easily."
He was gone in the blink of an eye, melting into the shadows beneath him as Sivanna moved away, though his whispering voice echoed in her ears.
"I see what you can become. I can help you be whole again. You are broken. I will fix you."
—-
She didn't need fixing. But he was right in some sense. She was suffocating.
Leaving her dozing husband and the comfort of a warm bed, Sivanna moved into the bathroom and studied her reflection in the mirror.
There was anger, there. And fear. She could read herself like a book, and so it was probably no surprise that the man she had encountered in the Inn could just as easily. It was a startling feeling?like she was losing her grip on something. She had felt something like this before when she had apprenticed under a lich named Raithmoore, when it took attacking her own husband to be convinced that she was being controlled under the lich's influence. She felt it again when she was staring past the barrel of a SigSauer at the half-elf, Faith, who had almost undone everything Sivanna had worked toward since leaving Silvanost.
It was an unsettling, exhilarating kind of anger that she felt. Something was unraveling. But it was different this time.
This time, it felt right.
((Adapted from live play with The Slender Man.))