Star was quietly perched underneath one of the trees near the lake. To anyone that came by, she'd appear asleep. This was because her eyes were closed, and she was breathing evenly, Slowly. Well She wasn't asleep, just thinking about the past, and recent events. From the little things to the big. The mundane and boring to the Exciting.
If one were to peer into her mind right now, they'd see that she was playing over one of the more recent events in her mind. Her meeting Apollo Mournefire. She remembered silently the words her had told her. A short summary: She'd better not hurt Athena, or she'd pay for it with blood. Which would be bad for her...and her family. She let herself remember how angry he had gotten at her when she had confessed to Hurting Athena in the past, over the Issue of Kieran....and how he had gotten Athena pregnant. Oh, And how she had almost lost her.
The angry words she had used towards the both of them. When she had Screamed at Kieran to just go, to leave Athena and her alone, and that she hated him with a passion. Then....The memory of later that day, when she had spoken to Athena, and made her cry once more. She felt horrid for doing that, and there was no way she could go back and fix that hurt. Not to mention there was no way for her to ever forget the look of pain and hurt on her love's face. It was imprinted on her memory permanatly...
Then...Her thoughts moved on to Caolan....And how she Had almost royally screwed things up again with Athena. Caolan had been just a protector, bonded to Star at the soul. Slowly though....She realized the slightly growing feelings she had for him. The fact that she at first, ated on them, then,once she realized that she was feeling more than the normal feelings that she should for a protector, she freaked, and began to shut him out, with only a kiss here and there to him. Until Athena had found her snuggling and kissing him one day.
Oh That was another pained look that she'd never for get. For the longest time she felt torn, and horrid for what she had done, once again. And she thought for certian That she'd loose Athena. But....She hadn't by some miracle. After a moment, a solitary tear ran down her cheek, only to be followed by several others.
"Ohhh. Athena....Firebug. I've messed up so many times in the past....And I feel so horrid for it. Just....Goddess forbid I do anything else to hurt you like I have....I won't be able to forgive myself."
These words were spoken softly, a breathy whisper in the wind to no one in paticular. For there was no one there to hear them. The words were just spoken to be heard my Star's own ears. Several more moments past, and the flow of tears still continued. She shifted then, and drew her knees up to her chest, and let her chin rest atop of them. Icy blue hues finally opened, and peered out over the lake.
Silently she let her mind drift to the present, and the planning she had to do now with Athena....Their wedding...Where....Who to Invite....What to have as refreshments The after party....So much to plan, and she had no clue where to start at all. What was she to do now?
Finally, she reached up to wipe at her tear stained cheeks quietly, before she absently let her fingers run over the ring that was happily nestled on her ring finger. Her engagement ring, From the woman she loved with all her heart. Then, she gave a soft breathy whisper of words once more.
"Firebug...I want to be better For you...And for every one else....I don't ever want to hurt you again like that....If I do....I don't deserve somone as kind and loving as you...I've screwed up so many times.''
It was then....she made a silent promise to herself, to never hurt the love of her life like that again....Not even if her life depended on it. She'd die before she ever hurt her Firebug again.
If one were to peer into her mind right now, they'd see that she was playing over one of the more recent events in her mind. Her meeting Apollo Mournefire. She remembered silently the words her had told her. A short summary: She'd better not hurt Athena, or she'd pay for it with blood. Which would be bad for her...and her family. She let herself remember how angry he had gotten at her when she had confessed to Hurting Athena in the past, over the Issue of Kieran....and how he had gotten Athena pregnant. Oh, And how she had almost lost her.
The angry words she had used towards the both of them. When she had Screamed at Kieran to just go, to leave Athena and her alone, and that she hated him with a passion. Then....The memory of later that day, when she had spoken to Athena, and made her cry once more. She felt horrid for doing that, and there was no way she could go back and fix that hurt. Not to mention there was no way for her to ever forget the look of pain and hurt on her love's face. It was imprinted on her memory permanatly...
Then...Her thoughts moved on to Caolan....And how she Had almost royally screwed things up again with Athena. Caolan had been just a protector, bonded to Star at the soul. Slowly though....She realized the slightly growing feelings she had for him. The fact that she at first, ated on them, then,once she realized that she was feeling more than the normal feelings that she should for a protector, she freaked, and began to shut him out, with only a kiss here and there to him. Until Athena had found her snuggling and kissing him one day.
Oh That was another pained look that she'd never for get. For the longest time she felt torn, and horrid for what she had done, once again. And she thought for certian That she'd loose Athena. But....She hadn't by some miracle. After a moment, a solitary tear ran down her cheek, only to be followed by several others.
"Ohhh. Athena....Firebug. I've messed up so many times in the past....And I feel so horrid for it. Just....Goddess forbid I do anything else to hurt you like I have....I won't be able to forgive myself."
These words were spoken softly, a breathy whisper in the wind to no one in paticular. For there was no one there to hear them. The words were just spoken to be heard my Star's own ears. Several more moments past, and the flow of tears still continued. She shifted then, and drew her knees up to her chest, and let her chin rest atop of them. Icy blue hues finally opened, and peered out over the lake.
Silently she let her mind drift to the present, and the planning she had to do now with Athena....Their wedding...Where....Who to Invite....What to have as refreshments The after party....So much to plan, and she had no clue where to start at all. What was she to do now?
Finally, she reached up to wipe at her tear stained cheeks quietly, before she absently let her fingers run over the ring that was happily nestled on her ring finger. Her engagement ring, From the woman she loved with all her heart. Then, she gave a soft breathy whisper of words once more.
"Firebug...I want to be better For you...And for every one else....I don't ever want to hurt you again like that....If I do....I don't deserve somone as kind and loving as you...I've screwed up so many times.''
It was then....she made a silent promise to herself, to never hurt the love of her life like that again....Not even if her life depended on it. She'd die before she ever hurt her Firebug again.