That's a tough act to follow....But I do love challenges. Music tells a story. Let us start at the beginning with the Queen of the Clouds, shall we"

"Spend my days locked in a haze Trying to forget you babe I fall back down Gotta stay high all my life To forget I'm missing you..."

Tove Lo - Habits

Through music and dreams we find communication and empathy. I thought at this point, having lost her family, Rose had hit rock bottom or pretty near. But how deep that rabbit hole would go, I knew not. I thought to bring some insights....But where we went is not where I expected. Perhaps going back over the tale musically will help me figure out how this happened"

This is the beginning and as I try to make sense of it all....appropriate perhaps to point out the nightmare thread. The first one coincides, definitely not coincidence, with this song. The melodies these days are very....different. For those who find this scenario too ordinary I can only laugh and say - enjoy the sanity while there is still some semblance left.

The Worst Kind of Dreams

Now I know that there's a different way to die My body breathes Heart still beats But I am not alive... Follow me down to the river Drink while the water is clean Follow me down to the river tonight I'll be down here on my knees...

Pretty Reckless - Follow Me Down

Here's a little Fear and Loathing put to some Velvet Acid Christ I found poking around. Enjoy.

Velvet Acid Christ - Fun With Drugs

Hunter S. Thompson: Oh God...Did you eat all this acid"

Dr. Gonzo: That's right...MUSIC!

"This is not a good town for psychedelic drugs... Extremely menacing vibrations were all around us."

"I Think this place is getting to me. I think I'm getting the Fear."

"We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a salt shaker half full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of multi-colored uppers, downers, screamers, laughers and also a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether and two dozen amyls."

Sick distorted colors that stab into your skin The fluctuating light that comes from within Acid on the tongue goes straight through your brain Falling on the floor as you wince in pain

"Total loss of all basic motor skills Blurred vision, no balance, numb tongue The mind recoils in horror, Unable to communicate with the spinal column Which is interesting because you can actually watch Yourself behaving in this terrible way."

Trying to escape, but there's nowhere left to run to I see you fall again on your face Never mind this horrid disgrace I see you, I feel you, I know you, I own you I see you, I feel you, I know you, I own you

"The acid had shifted gears on him; the next phase would probably be one of those hellishly intense introspection nightmares. Four hours or so of catatonic despair."

"I decided to eat only half of the acid at first, but I spilled the rest on the sleeve of my red woollen shirt."

I see your skin is falling off your face And fall onto the floor Time drips away from the world And the time that you spent is an underworld I cannot see, but I know you're sick And I do not mind that you try Anticipate about the world inside And take some more and fry your mind

"And a vioce was screaming: Holy Jesus! What are these God damn animals?"

Sick distorted colors that stab into your skin

"five sheets of high-powered blotter acid..."

The fluctuating light that comes from within Acid on the tongue goes straight through your brain Falling on the floor as you wince in pain I see you, I feel you, I know you, I own you I see you, I feel you, I know you, I own you

In your mind In your place In your sickness In disgrace In your mind In your face I know you never wanted this

"One of the things you learn after years of dealing with drug people, is that you can turn your back on a person. But never turn your back on a drug....Especially when it's waving a razor sharp hunting knife in your eye."

The following dream was challenging to write but I'm loving the video I happened upon for it. Although it ought to have been posted it has not yet so this is sort of a teaser...I've found some things just should not be and there are reasons for all those warnings. Heed them or not as you choose but do not make the mistake of thinking you can ever go back.



Beyond the Black Rainbow - Down in the Park