Topic: Rebirth

Tobias Acton

Date: 2014-01-14 12:11 EST
Angry words and confusion will only get a person so far. Hidden once more behind the shutters of the house on Rushbrook Street, Tobias Acton was presented with a unique problem - an unconscious fledgling, newly turned and unfed, and that fledgling's human wife, furious and frightened, in the same house. He was forced to abandon Nick, locking the younger vampire securely in the cellar before turning his attention to Willow. Her wounds were seen to, and over the course of that gentle care, he explained as best he could what had happened and what had become of her husband. When, at last, she was exhausted from tears and confusion, he persuaded her to sleep, leaving her to settle into the room he had set aside for her and her husband earlier that day. He left the house once only, to procure something his other guest would need upon waking, and entered the cellar, taking up vigil over his unconscious companion. He was patient. He could wait.

Time was meaningless to the fledgling vampire that Detective Nick Gregory had become. How long he'd been unconscious, he didn't know or care. Minutes, hours, days, even years. Time was important to humans who measured the precious, short years of their lives, but to one who had essentially become immortal, time did not matter. Of course, Nick did not yet know this, but Tobias did. It made one patient and impatient all at the same time. Only that same time would tell whether Nick Gregory would learn how to control his bloodlust and be able to live as normal a life as possible, like Tobias, or let the bloodlust consume him and become a monster, like the vampire who'd made him.

As it happened, it was only a few hours before the fledgling started to stir, consciousness slowly returning. Yellow eyes snapped open once again, snarling at the sight of the other vampire before him. Even in this state of madness, the newly-made vampire recognized one who was far older and stronger and capable of destroying him with very little effort.

Tobias looked up from his perusing of the newspaper, apparently very at home in his chosen seat beneath a lamp. He met the fledgling's eyes, infusing just enough power into his gaze to keep any accidents from happening. "Welcome back," he greeted the other, calm and in control, noting all the signs of a being very close to the edge with his need for blood. He nodded toward a corner of the cellar, where he had tethered two goats. "Do eat up, there's a good boy."

Thankfully, Tobias was a powerful enough vampire that he could hold Nick in his thrall at least enough that the other vampire didn't attack him or try to escape, as futile as the effort might have been. The blood madness had descended, burning in Nick's brain, eradicating all common sense and control. He was like a starving animal, wild with pain craving the only thing that would give him any kind of comfort - blood. His yellow-eyed gaze strayed to the goats, and he wasted no time descending on them with a violent hunger that would put him to shame if he knew what he was doing. Out of his mind with the need for blood, he tore into the first goat, devouring the poor helpless animal's blood with a voracious appetite that was not readily satisfied.

There was no judgement from the elder vampire who watched him, understanding the need for blood, remembering his own first feed. His first and only kill had been on that night, and he was determined that Nick should not have to suffer the guilt of having taken a human life on top of the disgust at having become what he was. Tobias simply sat quietly, watching the new vampire feed, and hoping like hell that it would be enough to sate the need.

It took another two hours before the fledgling's hunger was satisfied, gorged with blood, the pair of goats lifeless and drained of blood, not one drop wasted. The change in the new vampire was not immediate, but after a little while, the fever that had been raging inside him seemed to subside, and the man that was at the heart of the beast slowly emerged. The first thing Nick did when conscious and coherent thought returned was back away from the bodies of the dead goats, shaking his head in denial of what he already knew must have happened, of what he'd become. "No," he muttered low, his voice sounding different to his own ears, though it was only his hearing that had changed, not his voice.

"Yes." Tobias spoke quietly, aware that it took time to grow accustomed to the change in hearing, rising to his feet as this first sign of Nick's true self made itself known. "I am so sorry. I was too late." Deep regret colored his voice and expression as he spoke. "Too late to prevent Josef from exacting revenge, but Willow is alive. She is asleep, upstairs."

Nick's face brightened at the mention of Willow, flooded with relief at the knowledge that she was alive and safe and resting. The rest didn't matter so long as she was safe. He'd have sacrificed his life a dozen times over just to keep her safe, if not happy. Happiness was another matter all together, especially now. He swallowed hard, more from reflex than need, his throat tightening. Could vampires cry real tears? It seemed he was about to find out. "Alive, she's alive. Thank God," he muttered, barely a whisper, though to his ears, it sounded like he'd almost shouted.

"Yes, my boy, she is alive," Tobias repeated it for him in that same carefully quiet tone, smiling a little to see that the man's heart had stayed true through it all. "I have explained to her as best I could, and seen to her injuries. I do not think she will sleep soundly, but she will sleep, and that is the best medicine for her at this time."

Nick looked down at himself, at the torn bloody clothes, at his blood-stained hands, the faintly metallic taste of blood in his mouth. Blood, blood, and more blood. Though it was what kept him alive, the thought of it almost made him violently ill, his human morality clashing with the simple will and need to survive. He had become a monster, but Willow was alive and well and safe. He couldn't remember the last time he'd shed tears for anyone or anything, but he found himself struggling for control, relief that Willow was safe countered by the horror at what he'd become. He turned away so the vampire could not see his face, though he might guess what Nick was feeling, having experienced it once himself, albeit two centuries in the past.

"Thank you," Nick muttered, his voice ragged with emotion, not because he had been saved, but for Willow's sake.

There was no need for thanks, but Tobias did not want to add insult to injury by denying the man the chance to express himself. "There is a sink over by that far wall," he offered softly. "A wash in hot water and some fresh clothes will help a little. Give yourself a moment in stillness, and you will be able to hear her heartbeat, strong and steady."

Tobias Acton

Date: 2014-01-14 12:12 EST
Part of Nick wanted to reject the man's help, but he couldn't. Not yet. He needed to see Willow, to make sure she was indeed safe. He needed to tell her how sorry he was and how stupid he'd been. He needed her to know that despite everything, he still loved her, would always love her, but that he couldn't live like this. Beauty and the Beast, that's who they were now. How could she ever possibly love him now that he had become this monster" He climbed to his feet and went to the basin to wash the blood from his hands, his face, wondering if he'd ever be able to wash away his guilt the way he had washed away that blood. And yet, he had not yet killed anyone. Only one vampire who would have only killed Willow if he had not killed her first.

Tobias watched him for a moment before leaving the other man to his ablutions, turning to clean up the mess that was left of the goats. Out of sight, out of mind, hopefully. He had willingly become what he was; he could not begin to imagine what was going through Nick's mind as he came to terms with what had happened. All he could do was offer what support he was able to, and hope that the guilt did not destroy the good that was left in Nick's life.

What was it that humans said after they showered and rested and filled their stomachs after a particularly difficult experience" That they felt almost human again. Almost human. But he was not even close to being human anymore. Nick got up and went over to the basin to wash the blood from his hands and face, watching the water turn crimson as it swirled down the drain. His thoughts turned to the moment when he'd shoved the heart of the vampire that had been Lorelei down the disposal. He'd felt some strange feeling of triumph in that moment, quickly followed by horror. Who had been the monster then" The hunter or the hunted"

Something Nick had once read came to mind. Nietzsche he thought it was. "Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."

"Josef escaped." Speed was evidently also an ability Nick would now have to get used to, if the speed with which Tobias returned was anything to go by. "I had a choice - to pursue him, or to save her. I chose to save her, for you. But I will need help to track him down. His eye will be fixed upon your Willow now."

Nick washed and changed, but he felt no more human, no less a monster than he had before he'd washed the blood from his hands. He had quieted a moment, searching with some unknown sense he could not quite fathom for Willow's presence, hearing a heart beating somewhere nearby and somehow knowing it belonged to her. He found it both comforting and horrifying to know he could sense such a thing, and pushed the thought from his mind before that part of him that was a monster craved her blood again. The emotions that had been threatening to overcome him subsided a little, assisted by the black hatred he felt for Josef at the mention of his sire's name. "What happens to me if you destroy him?" Nick asked, his back still turned to the other vampire, realizing he felt his presence there without having to see him with his own eyes.

"Absolutely nothing," Tobias told him, unable to help a quiet sense of amusement. "Modern myth tells a great many tales about us, few of which are accurate. Indeed, as one of his, you inherit some of his skill - his strength, his speed. With a little work, you could be his equal."

"He was foolish to make me," Nick remarked quietly, almost more to himself than to the vampire behind him. "He must know I will do everything in my power to destroy him." He turned at last to face Tobias, his face a mask of hatred and determination. Whatever happened to him didn't matter, but he was determined to see to it that Josef got what was coming to him once and for all.

"He expected your first act to be draining the life from the woman you love," Tobias told him, still in that soft tone. "That would have destroyed you, Nick. You would have ended yourself, rather than hunt him down. Now he has a dangerous adversary who will be hunting him for the first time in centuries. He made a grave mistake tonight."

Tobias was right. Nick's first thought when he'd realized what he'd become was to ask the other vampire to kill him, destroy him, end this nightmare once and for all, but the will to live was a strong one, and vengeance was a great motivator. "Tell me what you need me to do," Nick told Tobias simply. It was simply stated, but in his own way, he was asking the older vampire to take him under his wing, to teach him, mentor him, be his friend and his partner and his ally. He didn't know what the future held for him or for Willow, but he knew he would not rest until the vampire that was Count Josef Christopherson was destroyed.

"I need you to learn control," the older vampire told him just as simply. "Not just of the bloodlust, which will come easily, I suspect, but of your hatred for him. Learn to control and manipulate those skills and abilities he has left you with. When that is done, we will kill him."

"You will teach me?" Nick asked, needing that small bit of reassurance, though it sort of went without saying. He knew it wouldn't be easy. He could easily let himself become consumed with hatred for the other vampire, rage and hatred and an uncontrollable desire to make Josef's life a living hell. He had already taken from Josef that which he had cherished most, and he knew the other vampire would be only too happy to return the favor. Nick realized it wasn't just about revenge, but as always, it was about protecting the only woman he had ever loved and would ever love, no matter long he might live.

"That's the idea, yes." Tobias turned to face his companion, knowing he would have to come clean about something before Nick left the cellar. "I gave Willow a little of my own blood," he said carefully. "Not enough to turn her, certainly, and even that would only happen if she were to die in the next twelve hours or so. But my blood will close the wounds on her neck. She won't have to wear a scarf or answer difficult questions. And the reason I am telling you this is because you will be able to smell my blood in hers. I have done nothing to her she did not first agree to."

Nick's brows arched higher in a face that was not nearly as pale or stony as it had been before. Jealousy flared in a heart that no longer needed to beat before his brain took over, reasoning that Tobias had only done this out of necessity and nothing more. He frowned as another thought came to mind, the realization that as much as he loved her, he wasn't sure Willow would feel the same now that he was no longer human. "I don't want her to see me like this," he admitted, forlornly. "I don't want her anywhere near me."

"I don't care." Though his voice was still gentle, there was a lack of sympathy in Tobias' reply to Nick's self-pitying declaration. "Do you have any idea of what that girl has been through today' Kidnapped, bitten, tied up, tormented, witness to the death of her kidnapper, witness to the attack on you. She watched you die, and it broke her. The only thing keeping her from falling into quite reasonable insanity at this moment is the promise that she will see you when she wakes up. And before you even attempt to suggest it, I refuse to enable your cowardice. If you are intent upon breaking her heart, then do it yourself, in person. Leave me out of it."

Tobias Acton

Date: 2014-01-14 12:13 EST
What could Nick possibly say to that' He wasn't sure if he was being a coward exactly, but he knew Tobias was right. He was being selfish. Whatever he had become, he was still Willow's husband, and she needed him. If she didn't want him anymore, she would have to tell him herself. Instead of anger, he felt only shame. "You made your point," Nick admitted, no apology offered, as he felt it unnecessary. Whatever happened between him and Willow was none of Tobias' business really, but he seemed determined not to repeat what had happened to his own beloved Lorelei.

The elder vampire nodded, tilting his head as he seemed to stretch his senses further than the room that enclosed them for a moment. "It is almost dawn," he said quietly, turning his gaze to Nick. "She will awaken soon, I imagine. Will you go to her?"

"Don't I shut down at dawn?" Nick asked, knowing very little as yet about what was truth and what was fiction regarding being a vampire. He was starting to hate the word vampire and all that it implied. He hadn't asked for this - none of them had. He'd just been doing his job. It was Josef who was to blame for all this, not him. Nick kept hoping that he'd wake up beside Willow at home in their bed and realize all of this had just been some crazy nightmare. It wasn't fair. He didn't want this. He didn't want to be a monster. It was all a horrible mistake.

Tobias chuckled, though there was little mirth in the sound. "No," he assured Nick. "In the past, vampires have slept during the hours of daylight purely because there was little else they could do. In these modern times, there is more to occupy our time that can be done safely indoors. You require little more than three or four hours of sleep, which you can take at any time, Nick."

"How convenient," Nick remarked, sarcastically. Maybe Tobias found the situation amusing, but Nick did not share in that amusement. He realized, however, that he had a lot to learn about what he had become, and he needed Tobias to teach him. "There's no cure, is there?" he asked, realizing how hopeless the situation really was. All he could think of was that all of the hopes and dreams he and Willow shared for the future had gone up in smoke. How could she ever love him now that he was a monster" They'd never have a family, never grow old together, never do any of the things that married people looked forward to doing together. Maybe never even make love again. How fair was that"

"Sarcasm is hardly going to get you through this, Nicholas," Tobias informed him pointedly. "It is a difficult transition, I do understand that, and yes, there are things you will need to know as time goes on. But what is most important here and now is making sure you and Willow have your place in this community maintained and protected. I have already set certain wheels in motion that will keep you both from being declared missing or presumed dead; you will likely be offered a transfer to a special investigations unit of the police force, which will offer you a retainer in return for your services the next time one of the things that go bump in the night decides to get above itself."

Nick arched a brow at the other vampire, a little surprised that all of this had already been arranged, presumably while he had been unconscious. Though he realized the elder vampire was trying to help, it irked Nick a little that these decisions had been made without him, not to mention the fact that Tobias had not answered his question. "How did you manage that?" he asked, wondering just far Tobias' sphere of influence reached. Nick knew that the police had to have already found Paul and Mindy dead, as well as what was left of Lorelei in the kitchen, the remains of her heart in the garbage disposal. The place was literally a bloody mess, and Nick and Willow were as good as missing. How were they going to explain that"

"I have friends," Tobias admitted. "It should not surprise you to know that there are people in positions of power who are aware of us. Indeed, there are even some vampires in such positions." He eyed Nick warily. "I had to move quickly. Had I not, there would be a full search in place for you and your wife, and you would both have to answer some difficult questions."

"So, where are we" On vacation?" There was that hint of sarcasm again. Though he really did appreciate Tobias' help, Nick couldn't help feeling bitter that his life - their lives - had come to this. It was still almost too much for him to fathom, much less accept. "You didn't answer my question," he reminded him, taking the man at his word, unsurprised that he had friends in high places. The man - or more accurately, vampire - hadn't survived over two centuries without having learned a thing or two. "Is there a cure?" he repeated, though he already knew the answer. If there was, then Tobias would have most likely mentioned it already.

"You are currently in a private hospital, undergoing treatment for injuries sustained during a violent encounter with a psychotic killer who had kidnapped your wife and murdered your neighbors," Tobias informed him calmly. "Your injuries are such that you are to receive the equivalent of an honorable discharge from the service - unfortunately you will not be able to enter the precinct during working hours any longer, Nick." He paused as the subject of a cure arose once again, sighing deeply with regret. "Sadly, there is no cure that I am aware of, and I have looked. You are not the first, I am afraid. If there were a cure, I would have it here for you now."

What was Nick to say to that' It seemed Tobias had tidied things up very neatly, though as far as Nick was concerned, the future was still very much uncertain. Much of that uncertainty depended on Willow. Until Nick spoke with her, he had no idea where either of them were going from here. He did know one thing for certain, however - he wasn't going to rest until Josef was destroyed.

Nick turned away from the other man, vampire, whatever he was, his expression changing, softening as his thoughts turned once again to Willow, always to Willow, who meant more to him than life itself. Tobias was right - she'd been through hell, and he knew that no matter what had happened to him, no matter how horrific his life had become, he couldn't turn his back on her now. Would she blame him' Would she hate him' Would she find him repulsive" There was only one way to find out, and though he wanted to see her, he was dreading the outcome. "When can I see her?"

"Well ....now," the older vampire said, surprised that Nick was so eager to see his wife. "You have fed, you should not feel the urge to feed again for several days. Ah ....one thing you should know, though, Nick," he added a little warily. "Your desires play a prominent role in your instincts now. Any desire will work on you until you learn to control them over the next weeks. I don't want you to be surprised, or short with your wife, if that begins to happen. If she is willing, there is no problem. If she is unwilling, I will tear you off her, am I quite clear?"

Tobias Acton

Date: 2014-01-14 12:14 EST
Nick glanced back at the vampire with that slightly-arched brow again that indicated he was either confused, startled, or a little of both, as was the case at the moment. "I'm not sure I'm following you," he admitted. "I have no intention of hurting her."

"I know you don't," Tobias agreed with a gentle smile. "But desires are powerful things. I am simply warning you, that is all. You may not be able to talk to her until desire is sated."

"Her desire or mine?" Nick countered, assuming if he understood him correctly, Tobias was talking about Nick's desire for Willow, not the other way around. "I thought....I thought vampires couldn't..." He trailed off without explaining that thought further, as it seemed to go without saying that Nick was referring to sex. It was his understanding that vampires were unable to function in that way, and yet, in myths and legends, they always seemed to be portrayed as creatures of seduction. He had always assumed that seduction was used solely for the means of obtaining blood.

"Oh, you are more than capable, I assure you," the older vampire nodded. "And don't be so quick to assume that your Willow will turn her back on you. She told me herself that you are all she has. She is more concerned for you than for herself." He didn't add any more, not particularly wanting to get into a discussion about vampiric fertility at this juncture. Restoring the equilibrium of the Gregorys' marriage was the next step on the journey.

Nick wasn't sure if that was a relief or not. Thus far, it seemed there were more benefits to being a vampire than disadvantages - except for the whole blood drinking thing - but he still had far more questions than answers. Despite the reassurance from the older vampire, Nick frowned worriedly. "I'm a monster." How could she possibly love a monster"

"I beg to differ, but I doubt you will listen to me," Tobias sighed, shaking his head. "Do you feel ready to see her" I think she is beginning to stir up there." He tilted his head to listen for a moment, better able to judge the subtle change in heartbeat that foretold a waking human. "She will want to see you, Nick."

Nick watched as the other vampire tilted his head as if he was perking an ear for Willow's presence. If Nick let himself, he, too, could sense her presence, hear her heart beating slow and steady, as clearly as if she was right beside him. Jealousy flared again, but only momentarily, as Nick realized Tobias couldn't help but hear her. Still, she was his wife; unless and until she no longer wanted him, she belonged to him. The jealousy faded as Nick regained control of his emotions, trying to see Tobias as a friend, perhaps even a father figure, instead of a rival. Nick hesitated a moment, not really one for sharing his feelings with anyone other than his wife, but he needed Tobias to know something that should have gone without saying. "I love her. I'm never going to stop loving her."

"Then why do you think it will be any different for her?" It was such a simple question, and one Nick should have known the answer to. But there was still that underlying uncertainty that he might have changed, somehow. Tobias smiled, knowing that sense of possession would only deepen with time and glad of it. Willow could ask for no better protector than a vampire who loved her. "Come along, my boy," he told Nick, gesturing for the new vampire to follow him. "Come into the house and see your wife."

What choice did he have" The moment of truth was upon him. She would either love and accept him for what he had become or reject him. He knew what he'd do if she rejected him, but not until after Josef had been dealt with. If, by some miracle, Willow was able to overlook what Nick had become and still love him as she always had, then there might be hope. He knew it wouldn't be easy. They both had a lot to learn, but at least they'd figure it out together.

((And so the angst begins! *cackles* What, did you think we'd really let them have a normal life" In this folder?! Many thanks to Nick's player for being awesome!))